Currently...
Listening: My Boo – Usher & Alicia Keys
Feeling: sick, yes, i'm slightly sick nw... *sniff, sniff*

*sniff, sniff* suki's nw slightly sick nya... after all dis days of LCCI course Marathon... can die wor... but i tink i'll pass e exam nya... though mite nt b able to get a DISTINCTION... i near freak out durin e exam, cause i entered e wrg date nya... tried to edit em, but to no avail... so decided to take a chance to almost e whole thg again... managed to finish within an hour (around 2++ to 3+)... i was kind of relaxed a couple of hrs before e exam, and managed to do a lil bit of revision onli dis mornin, before headin to school... e paper was kind of easy, so lets say, i'm lucky, i guess...?anyway, thanks, datte nii-chan~ for ya luck~~~ daisuke jii-san too~~~ X3 *huggies* i'm so blessed!

Argh... i tink i'm gonna come down w/ smthg nya... after sittin in an air-conditioned comp lab for e past 4 days (i was sitting between to central air-con thgy)... but at least i gt out alive, w/o getting infected w/ sm idiots sick germs... he was oredi sick since e 1st day of e course, n he doesnt close his mouth when he cough! Eeww!!! it's gross! Oh yea, he's a June baby wor... shd i give him a Doraemon face mask ar...? *sniff, sniff*

datte nii-chan... I'M NOT AN INTERESTING SPECIMEN NYA~~~~ i aint any animal! And i'm nt interesting! Read e rest of my bloggy entries for more details...

hey, anybody frm e forum wanna do bloggy linkin...? gt lots of space to do so nya~~~
i luv dis bloggy to pieces nya~~~ *huggies*

argh... my mum found out i've gt a bloggy liao wor... hope she wont read dis... she even threatened to erase e hard disk... wat e... anyway, i'll stil find another way to retrieve back my files... anyway, lose le, then lose lor... jus dat xin hui tong... other than dat, nthg else liao... i normally wil hang around in e forum, n do searchin of cosp stuff once in a while... so basically, i've gt nthg to lose... she dun even noe my passwd to all my accounts... so wat can she do...? i've bascially lost almost everythg dat i used to own, so i'm nt afraid anymore... does she tink i'm so obsess w/ anime stuff...? i'm so sorry, she's so wrg... i lead a normal life too... it's jus dat i dun fawn over e latest tawainese drama or watever is in fashion, even if i am, its mostly japanese culture stuff... jus bcos of her, i'm abstaining frm cosplay, gothic lolita, wat more does she wans...? i'm nt does very xiao de... i'm stil in check w/ reality... nt onli do i read mangas, i read novels too... why dun she go look at e book list i hv...? i wld enter e name of e bks i've done readin, into e list, jus to keep check.... within dis ½ yr, i've read close to 14 books (it's nt a lot i noe...), some of em quite long... e prob nw, is w/ Brokeback Mountain (chinese ver.), i'm stil nt done w/ it...

stil dun understand why cant my mum understand my love for japanese culture...? it's nt i wan to migrate tojapn when i'm old enuf... it's jus dat their culture, is smhw unique... their fashion, teen culture... Hyde, Gackt, Gothic Lolita, mangas, animes... i'm nt an female otaku nor i'm mad... it's a hobby, frm where i'm lookin at... to her, its an obsession, but for me , its explorin cultures... yes, at times, i do dream, eat , sleep e stuff dat i do, but to me, its smthg which i can spend time on... nthg's wrg w/ cosplay.... it's e ppl dat is e prob... i noe to sm, its dumb, paradin around in dumb costumes, and sm wld snigger at one's back (most of cosp. shd understand dat...)

i'm reali very tired... i'm reali very tired... i feel lost... why cant she try to understand me?! Why do ppl hv to side her, n nt try to understand wat i'm tryin to say?! Who shd i trust?! I've been trusting e wrg ones all along rite?! I jus wan ppl to respect me for who i am, trust me for wat i'm doin, love me for being myself... i wan to change, it's jus dat... it's jus dat... i dun noe hw... my mind is in a state of blank nw... i wan sm1 to hold me and tell me dat its nthg wrg w/ me... i reali feel like i cld breakdown any moment... who wil it b? I hate explaining myself... i reali wan sm1 nw... pls... let it b anyone... sm times, smthg is wrg w/ me, it's jus dat i dun say it... i mean, when u say it, others jus shrugged em off their shuolders, it does nt make any difference at all... i dun wan to b ignored... i wan sm1 to reply to me...

God, i know you're here... its jus dat... i'm reali tired... nobody tries to understand me, i know u do... it's jus dat, can u sent sm1 to bring me away....? i'm reali very tired... at times, i feel like crying, but i end up nt doin so... bcos i dun wan ppl to worry for me... i dun wan to hurt my love ones... but i'm reali fallin apart nw... who's goin pick up e pieces...? i'm always alone, though physically i'm w/ sm1... i wan sm1 who reali understand me to b here... pls... sent dat sm1 nw... i'm reali ready leave here.... nobody loves me.... i'm often labelled as e XL kid or e bitch... but i dun care... bcos i know you're dere... i wan to stay strong, but reali... dis is my limit... i'm a human, nt any super being... take me away... pls.... life is nt worth living nw... i'm broke spiritually... i reali hv nthg to offer already... i've lost my best frens... i've lost everythg i've own....

why do i hv to cry in front of ppl...? i wan to stay strong... but i dun feel like one any longer.... i feel like a living corpse... like a pasocon... i feel like a puppet... i dun feel dat i'm me any longer... pls... stop making me suffering...

can u pls take me along...?

currently...
feeling: depress...
drnking: Peach Ice Blend Bubble Tea...

gomen ne, dia jii-san, datte nii-chan...

dai jii-san, sorry to cry over e fone jus nw nya... gomen... after all dis days of sh*tty stuff, i'm kind of stressed up... no one reali understand hw i feel...

datte nii-chan, thanks for coming over today to help me w/ my art piece... *huggies* its finally done...! nw i jus need to hand it in to my teacher, and i wil b officially DONE!!!

argh... why did i hv to cry again...? why do i hv to waste my tears on ppl who nv relai love/like me....? dey dun deserve my tears... i'm stressed out currently... my mum hv been scoldin for a couple of days... ENOUGH IS ENOUGH!!! i'm no puppet, which u can manipulate around so happily! Neither am i anyone's PET!!! i nearly wanted to end my life, couple of days ago, hv any1 realised dat? I wonder if anyone wld attend my funeral when i'm dead... wil it be you...? pls... anyone... if you love me, pls... try to understand hw i'm feelin nw... pls b dere for me... i dun to cry, and look like a sh*tty whiny baby... i jus wan attention dats all... i jus wan love dats all... stop reprimandin me at ewrg time, i dun appreciate it... i'm stubborn... i'm stupid... i'm nt senstive...