Listening: Katrina – David Tao
Mood: F*CKING P*SSED, HAPPY NOW?!

To be honest, I’m actually very, very p*ssed. And I am rarely seen doing the most absurd things, other than throwing a goddamn tantrum. Really, tantrums aren’t the worst of me.

When I get angry, I’ve actually got to hold my temper to the point, when actually there are times I’ve really wanted to hit someone. (Yes, I’ve got very bad temper…!) But each time, people have to just step over my head, going on “ATTACKING” me. Hey, I ain’t no sick cat.

I know I’ll do stupid things when I get real sh*tty p*ssed, that’s one of my reason of not hitting people. I even try to back down from a fight/quarrel at times when I know it’ll go to nowhere good for both of the parties, though I don’t really mind being “PHYSICAL”!

I know, this blog entry will not make any sense to anyone; it’s just that I’m real ANGRY!!! *Growl*

>>I feel so used! Each time I make the effort to something, you don’t seem to appreciate it! No point telling me that you want me. I feel like an sms-buddy of yours, I was never part of your life, I see…

I’m not good with words or with actions. I’m b*tchy. Irritating. Dumb. Insensitive. I’m not so feminine unlike the girls I know/mix with. They’re so soft, nice, sweet, understanding. I’m so MUCH like a guy at times, that sometimes I wonder whether am I a girl or a guy…<<

Maybe I’ll play…

Sh*t I never was patient. I never was the PERFECT dream girl. I never was what you wanted. I never trust people, EASILY, you know why?! Because I’m always being put down by people I care for, why do I actually have to bother to trust them in the first place? How many times have I trusted someone when each time I turn my back, he/she does something bad to me?! Have you bothered to understand me in the first place?! Have you ever bothered to keep your promise you made to me?!

If you have never ever thought of keeping your promises to me, I suggest we better stop being friends, I DO NOT like such people pretending to be part of my life. I have enough on my plate I don’t need yours. Don’t pretend you ever know me, cause I’m not what you see.

I’m not a f-ing s*ssy princess of yours, I’m the QUEEN.
I’ll play with you, like a cat playing with its dinner.
I’ll spin you round and round, till you get confused from what’s happening.
I’ll be that puppeteer, controlling your every move, if that’s what you want.
I’ll never be yours that is for sure…

Labels: afterthoughts, anger, FUCK YOU, p*ssed, pfft

Listening: Professor Umbridge – Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix OST
Mood: oh, try p*ssing me off now…

Was with my mum just now during dinner, when I saw this scene in N*UC…

Man: “Do you have straw?”
Cashier: “I’m sorry, we don’t have…”
Man: “What you mean you don’t have straw?”
Cashier: “I’m sorry, we don’t have straw.” *looks a little intimidated*
Man: *stares angrily at cashier* What do you mean you don’t have straw?! I want to see your manager!”

Bl**dy a*sehole, you f*cking own N*UC issit? You think that cashier is your bl**dy maid/wife/whoever-you like-to-scold?! You think you freaking big size issit?! No bl**dy respect for people who’s pay are real damn pathetic…

Just one piece of straw, and you’re like a**. What if it is 2 piece of straws?! Are you going to frigging jump of the 15th storey building? If they don’t have straws, will you actually f*cking die? Why don’t just bring one around, anytime you can use it lar…

Gaah. I’ve should have taken your picture and put it on my blog, so I can frigging show the whole world your pathetic ugly face. Gaah. Show some bl**dy respect, arsehole!

I’ve been sick for the past few days, and I seriously hate my voice right now…! Grr.

I can’t wait to go for SOY event ne! I mean, imagine people I’ve not seen for quite sometime, except for some whom I often constantly keep in contact with! Also to support Togu too! But I hope I can make it for the competition too! As who? Won’t tell ya! But that character ish tottemo kawaii!!! Wufufu. Wakaka. *chokes, starts coughing* o-okay, okay… Better stop talking about SOY event le…!

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List 7 songs that you are into right now. No matter what the genre, whether they have words of even if they're not any good but they must be songs you're really enjoying now. Post these instructions in you LJ along with your 7 songs. Then tag 7 other people to see what they're listening to in absolute random order.

1. 近くて遠いゆめ – Hina Ichigo Character Album Single
2. My Anata – David Tao
3. Magic Works – Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire OST
4. Stronger – Kanye West
5. Clothes Off! – Gym Class Heroes
6. What If God Was One Of Us – Joan Osbourne
7. Yorokobi No Carol – Iwao Junko (Card Captor Sakura X’mas Carols)

Tag.
Anyone who wanna do. XD
Enjoy.

Labels: afterthoughts

mood: XD
listening: FINALLY - fergie

oops. i haven't been updating my blog for a few dys/ weeks... >,<

news update...

#1 - had a picnic photoshoot just last saturday, 29/12/2007! a pity, it kept raining, but suki.luna had lots of fun with curs, togu, sakura hime, sandra and kit!!!! XD

#2 - i *might* be going for SOY event ne, but cosplayin-wise? probably as VK, hina ichigo of ROZEN MAIDEN or random yukata girl ba... but i wanna use my cat ears ne!!! XD heheX. *somehow i resemble ritsuka-chan...*

hmm. who should i really cosplay for the year of 2008 ne... *ponders*


-Li Syaoran of Card cAptor Sakura (project pairing with sakura hime)
-waiter outfit (am sooooo INSPIRED after watching coffee prince on TV)
-harry potter
-ritsuka of LOVELESS
-honey and clove character
-kotobuki ran of SUPER GALS! Kotobuki Ran
-Reno of Final Fantasy:Advent Children
-Sakura of Tsubasa Reservoir Chronicle

shit. why did my yukata had to be of such sucky quality ar... argh. after getting my yukata from her, i went for my photoshoot, problem is, it started ripping at all those areas. luckily, curs was so sweet enough to help me sew some of the areas up, if not i couldn't carry on with the shoot.



recently saw this harry and severus pairing cosplay pic, totemo kawaii ii desuka? XD i can't wait to do such YAOI shoot, though curs will probably try to kick my a** or something... and it's nothing wrong in liking severus and harry pairing okay!!!! *forB*dden lub!*

ja ne!!! XD

Labels: afterthoughts, cheated, fun, gaah, gimme, harry + sevvy, harry potter, photoshoot, yaoi, yukata