...Saying I love you
Is not the words I want to hear from you
It's not that I want you
Not to say, but if you only knew
How easy it would be to show me how you feel
More than words is all you have to do to make it real
Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me
Cos I'd already know...

to a certain onii-chan of mine...>>*sigh* i dun want to go back into e relationship again, after being hurt... doesn't mean that i'm SINGLE, i have to get a boyfriend right? you are now just my onii-chan, nothing else... i cant give you that LAST chance anymore, cause you BLEW IT! anyway, i have told what type of a guy/man that i want, and i shall say it again. I want a man who's after God's favor. i don't want a man who BLAMES everything on the fault of the women, cause it takes 2 to clap. gaah... it's affecting me again... ptui~<<

>,< finally found out what was the problem with my blog ar. forgot to remove another code thgy... sheesh. i'm just DUMB w/ things relating to the computer...

roxas80>> i'm really sorry, for making such a selfish request...!!!!! gomen, laogong~~~ >,<

claude>> eek~ get well soon 'kay...? XD mummy kiss euu~~

hmm... so long no read YAOI fanfics le... i better find smthg nice to read... probably smthg w/ SWEET LURVE~ XP esp b/w yaoi lurvers... sweet...

sheesh. i find harry + sevvy pairings pretty adorable, that i'm writing one myself... sweet lURVE!

another 13 days or so to HARRY POTTER & the ORDER of PHOENIX!!!!! XD

Labels: afterthoughts, change, more than words, over you, yaoi

i finally finished my ten days roadshow at marine parade le. got a chance to rest le. i'm now having a bad SORE THROAT!!!!! >,< gaah....

hmmm. i'm not going for the event this sunday, cause i got photoshoot!!!! yeah! finally got my costume and wigs liao! hahaX. the only problem, is how to get my wig in shape wor... hahaX. cause namine the hair need to be layered by hairdressers de...

i think i finally know why curs said i am like hermoine le. Hermoine in the Harry potter series is a very sensible and mature girl, often given wisdom slightly wiser beyond her age to harry and ron. a very clever girl too. well, i'm sensible to a certain point bahX... hahaX.

i feel like starting a business ar... probably collaborate with my mum or smthg. since she can do beads earrings which are pretty nice.

gaah. lisa ono is a ver good singer!!!!! XD though its not the type of songs i'll sing, but probably enjoy whole heartedly... hahaX.

i feel like learning photography professionally. in photography we expressed emotions differently, cuase it's like a pair of human eyes, the perception of it, etc...

...you are my sunshine, my only sunshine
you make me happy when skies are grey...

gosh... lisa ono is really DAMN GOOD!!!!! XP

>> i just don't get this cosplayer ar... always tell me, she's busy with school, etc. but actually she's busy with her costumes. what a SELFISH little b*tch. i could have fought with her last friday, if i hadn't held my COOL. she's dAMN luCKY. f*ck euu lar. <<

>> I'M NOT BEING CRUDE, cause i can be worse than this, count your lucky stars! you better learn how to see from people's shoes, stop saying about living for others. we live for ourselves. i'm not asking you to be self-centred, i'm asking you to see that living on EARTH is a real blessing in disguise, some babies don't even live to see pass their first year of age. it hurts for me to see you like this. some people want to jump, run, laugh etc, but they cant, we can. why don't we just live each day with happiness...?

"Happiness is like a toothbrush
Everyone has one"

you are just hurting yourself even more.<<

hmm. i actually had a thought a few weeks ago. i wanna ADOPT kids! XD i want to give them more happiness, having a home, someone who loves them.... even if i were to have one of my own, i shall name him "SIRIUS"!!!! hahaX. X3 "sirius" actually means DOG STAR, do you know that? XD just lurve kids too much... XD

Labels: adopt, children, FUCK YOU, lisa ono, namine, photoshoot, start business, why hermoine

went for the PLANETSHAKERS' concert last week! you know one thing, i better get in touch with God le. DAMN. been such a naughty girl lately. f*CK. i ain't no devoted christian, mama JING.

yahoo! started working since saturday!!!!!! heheX.

gaah. blog more later.

Labels: SEXYBACK

listening: over you - chris daughtry (f*CK)

The greatest courage is the courage to be happy - Tibetan Proverb

gaah. why do i want to do something so RASH?! i was so close to diclosing thhings about him!!!! >,< argh. better sit down and cool down, man.

well, suki.luna is proud of herself today, cause she finished her NAFA test le, though don't think I'l pass all the test, i'm never the sports type of students... >,< i was cheering people even when i was running! hahaX. that's me, when i'm out of my mind, though not really DAT out of my mind.
my vacation is staring this week! yahho! am working for the next ten days starting from this saturday! yeah~ money~

i'll go cut my hair during the vacation too, i think... i want to start afresh ar...!!! after all this things... wouldn't anyone else one to start afresh too...?

gaah!!!! why does these few love songs seem to be playing in my mind?! gaah! *bangs head against table* argh. why. does. it. have. to. happen. to. me. gaah.

finoa>> sorry, for being DAMN tough to you. (tough lurve!) do try to put yourself in my shoe... i understand things that you're going through now.

kairi>> DAMN it. i think i'm in LURVE with you! hahaX... jus joking... i wanna meet up with you! X3

claude>> sorry ar. mummy today not really feeling that well. muacks~ but thanks for organizing anyway!

daisuke>> macross gave me my pics liao~ where's mine?! hahaX.

f*cking a**hole who broke my heart months back>> f*ck you. if i find out you're doing the same thing to your girl, you shall never see the daylight. f*ck you, bastard. i'm now your friend, not your girl anymore, so you better watch your back. your girl might be reading my blog any moment.

i want my MAROON 5!!!!!!!!!! maROON 5!!!!!!!! maroon 5!!!!!!

i'm bringing sexyback, yeah~ sh*t. DAMN affected by SHA liao. *growls*

GIVE ME MY MAROON 5!!!!!!!!!!!!

Labels: asshole, FUCK YOU, gaah, HIGH, hurts, kairi, maroon 5, over you, relationships

just had a photoshoot today with jerica and sawatari! though it's DAMN last minute de... hahaX... suki.luna enjoyed herself a lot today!!! X3 though my costume was very de cosFUCk, but my lolita was so much damn better, that my photographers wanted to post some of the pics on the forum! well... i don't really think i'm photogenic or what... anyway will post new pics on friendster
!

kairi's now finally back in Singapore! but i didn't went to pick her up, cause tommorow got school, but managed to have a quick chat with her just now through my son, Claude's phone just now. really been some times since i've seen her, at least 3 to 4 months le. anyway am meeting her for makan this friday! yeah~ kairi, i shall EAT you on friday!!!!!

Ambivalent Lucidity
is finally completed! >,< gaah! i'm actually a small fan of Sakai Michiba! chased after this fanfic since last year! well, it'll feel odd not having to read this fanfic anymore, but nah, she/he stil has more productions to come! yeah~ and i found another fanfic to read! it's called Unrequited Love
! hahaX... more, more, more!!!! suki.luna wants to read more fanfics!!!!! gaaaaahhhhh!!!!!

one more thing... young SEVERUS SNAPE is a HOTTIE!!!! he's suki.luna's HOTTIE of the MONTh!!!!!

Psalm 94:19
"When doubts filled my m8ind, your comfort gave me renewed hope and cheer"

Labels: ambivalent lucidity, cosFUCK, fanfics, kairi, photoshoot, sakai michiba, unrequited love

listening : make me wonder by maroon 5

asma's leaving our clas as of today. almost everyone were crying, including michael (aka haikal). she's leavig our course to pursue a degree, so sh can head to NIE to become a teacher.

i can't stop her, can i? after all, it's her decison to make whether to leave or to stay. though there was a period of time we cursed that she'll fail her entrance exams... >,<;

asma>> lurve u lots. don't forget me. i've learned so much from you, do you know that?

i'm learning to change. i'm never perfect, but i'm tryng to be. please be patient with me,this what i beg of you guys. i'm not GOD, i'm just a normal person trying to change her life.

Labels: change, hurts, leaving

listening: What i've done - Linkin Park
mood: erm. pretty peachy, i guess...

bwahahaha...! i'm gonna WATCH HARRY POTTER and the ORDER of the PHONEIX this week!!!! lurve my DANIEL RADCLIFFE!!!!!! XD

i think i'm going to start to PANIC again, cause certain things are not really done yet... >,< gaah!!! tasukete kudasai~

just bought this book "I kiss dating goodbye" by josh harris. SERIOUSLY, i've gotta stop putting myself in such relationships, that does not seem to benefit either God or me... it's also about COMMITMENT. sheesh, people nowadays don't know what's the real meaning of commitment. gosh, we're just NAiVE, aren't we...? (yup, i'm also one of them...)

i just cut my hair, and i look damn BOYISH!!!!!! gaah, should have told the auntie to cut like my previous sunao hairstyle... damn... the auntie was kind of buay song, ever since i brought my namine wig for her to trim just 2 weeks back... sheesh, if you dun wan to cut, you cld have say so, i'll just find someone else to trim for me... just for a lil' trim, you bl**dy hell overcharge me lor... wah lao...

*sigh* school's gonna start soon, eh... and it's this coming monday~~~ no~~~~ i still want my holiday~~~~~ gimme~ gimme~ gimme~ gimme back my holiday~~~ ;,;

Labels: afterthoughts, boyish-looking, gimme, God's LurvE, holiday, ORDER, overcharge, panic

to wish you luck or not...

just found out that he just got together with another girl. gaah. i'm getting affected le... but you know whta? this ain't gonna pull me down. cause i know my prince charming will be waiting for me. heheX. he'll definitely be a man after God's heart. yup, he'll. sh*t. i shouldn't have gotten together with him in the first place. argh. >,<

cursendra>> thanks for being my side for the past few weeks!!!! argh, sorry to keep dwelling into my own past.

finoa>> sorry for being so sarcastic to you ytd. was pretty shock with what you told me.

claude>> mama so long no see you le... kiss euu~~~

daisuke>> thanks for letting take 'hentai' pics of the cute bishies~~~

jerica>> eeekk~~~~ you're such an adorbale ritsuka!!!! X3 HPDm pairing rox!!!!

yukihoshi>> i find you and your younger brother very de kawaii~~~~ hahaX... hope you like the pics i took of you ytd!

sawatari>> my darling draco~~~~ hahaX.... X3

Labels: asshole, cosplay, fun, SSF

Interpretation of Harry Potter Lingo
english -> Charms -> Service, Quality & Communication
e.maths -> arithmacy
history -> history of magic
chemistry -> POTIONS (bleHX) -> Accomodation
P.E. -> Quidditch Training -> Sports & Wellness
Social Studies -> Muggle Studies
CME -> Divination (Professor Trelawney~ Gaah~)

Auror -> Police -> P.I.
Herbology -> Gardeners -> Psst. Environmentalist
Hogwarts -> Junior High & High School
Order of Phoneix -> Neighbourhood Watch
Dementors -> prison guards (dat goes CUCKOO) / Lawyers (ask curs. >,<)
beauxbaton -> convent girl school
durmstrang -> ACS (Barker)

suki.luna -> hermoine (neva understnad why)
cursendra -> pansy parkinson!!!!!! (parkinson!!!!!!! gaaah!!!!)
keiko -> DOBBY
yeanling -> harry potter / severus snape
cherie -> luna lovegood (loony~~~) / baby snape
cheekk89 -> colin creevy~~~
syuhaidah -> hermoine (smart), ravenclaw student
uncle wirby -> ron weasley~~~
chrno JING -> sirius black
keokepa -> draco malfoy (just too much comments already, worse den a women)
curs de geography teacher -> dolores umbridge (suck-up)
KONnichiwa -> hagrid

hahaX... do you find yourself in there? X3 just for laughs. found myself to be hermoine (dat cursendra lor...), gaah, is she sure? saying that i'm sensible, er... >,< i think i'm more of
ron + draco + harry = suki.luna
i pretty rash + brash. don't think straight at times. i'm loony at times too...!!! i wna luna lovegood's orange radish earrings!!!!

danial, asma>> thanks for comforting me! appreciate your concerns! gotta stay strong 'ya? X3
cursendra>> so crazy going out w/ you! smacking each other's butt!!! hahaX. Talked about Harr Potter Lingo from yesterday 8++ pm till 10++ liddat! hahaX... WE're crazy POTheads! hahaX. Harry Potter ROX!!!!! X3

Labels: cursendra, harry potter, Harry Potter Lingo, smack bUTTS