my dear 'friend'/whoever/anonymous-shitface,

could you at least use a name when commenting on my blog entry?! 8D

be a brave little girl/boy/human-beings...! \o/

Do I even know you in the first place?
Why are you even calling me by a nick my OTHER friends call me by? :D

link: http://suki-luna.livejournal.com/65701.html

whoever-this-random-babe/dude-is reply:

"hi suki, i think he lost his way when he was with his class, his groupie. it was a whole lot of bad influence that was pulling him all the way to the negative side. he may look happy to you on the outside yes. but on the inside, you never know how bad and dark his soul has already been affected. all mainly because of the type of friends he had. You see, good friends respect one another. Respect doesn't only mean say thank you or not being rude. But respect means you don't say crude remarks about your friend's gf/bf. You don't tell your friend to turn your back on his partner. Thats not respect. Friends don't share videos of sexual acts and encourage each other. Friends don't go around to Geylang to look at those prostitutes. If thats what you call friends, I think its better not to have those kind of friends right? I am not saying its you. im saying his mates. good friends should respect one anothers gf bf and respect each others religion. and good friends don't talk dirty about their sex life openly. thats confidential don't you agree? See, thats why he started pulling away from you people. Cos he realised its making his soul unclean. Please dont take it to heart, i am not directing this to you. i am just trying to explain to you the reason for his departure from the class.

Thanks. "

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Read this:

"Get this fact into your brain.

My dearest friend, I have never gave up on you.

It was you who did so....! Our friendship...!

You changed your number, no one knew where you fucking are anymore....!
*Guess what? You want me to STALK you? 8D

Ask yourself this question, who were the ones who actually did this sexual talk?
Did the girls from Kitchenette and SGA do so? What about me?

If we did, I'm probably screwing one of the girls happily, or maybe you if I'm/was desperate. 8D

Ask yourself another question, who went to ask KAK which Hotel 81 to go to?
Please do not pretend I did not see you asking her for "ADVICE", what a hypocrite.

Remember to use a condom, my friend! \o/"

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To my dearest bibik~

Your comment is real appreciated...!!!!! >_< thank you!

"Ahh. Amelia, this guy was once the talent of the class. Surely he did impacted the class in one ways or another and I am so very sure why you'd miss him even after he "disappeared" for probably various reasons.

Gees, I didn't know the class has causes the guy's soul to bet dirty. Maybe 'cause the class sing and cheered too much. Or maybe because the classmates are just being normal teenagers whose curiosity outshines every other aspects. Oh boy, Amelia. Its sad that this had to happen. The once cheerful (oh well, sadly no one knows that hes sad inside) guy has changed for the better is some other funny way.

-

Itsokay, The rest is still there for you, no matter what. "

gosh! thank you so much....!!!!!!!!!!!! >_<

Labels: 2009, friends, grown up, HK, HPO, i am prettier than you, ITE, letters to..., life, more than words, sarcasm with love, SEXYBACK, whatever, why hermoine

listening: makes me wonder by MAROON 5
mood: badada.

well, as some people know, i'm actually interested in photography, the only thing is that i don't have the camera.

i really want to pick up photography, so as to take pictures that are full of meaning...

but i would definitely ahve to major in a certain area right?



but maybe more towards candid and cosplay, i beleieve i can master the skill well, though not as good as my other photographer friends... but i won't know if i don't try right?



being a phootgrapher, we could probably be seeing things in a way we have not seen before with our eyes, do you agree on this point?

wow. it's something i've never experience before...

Labels: afterthoughts, memories, more than words, PHOTOGRAPHY, photos

listening: big girls don't cry - FERGIE (boo-yeah!)
mood: blank. *ptui

you see, you have proven me right! and you finally knew the entry was dedicated to you!

you blame me for not having MSN?! bl**dy trivial! i'm not using hotmail anymore by the way!

maybe i am a kid trying to be an adult, gosh, aren't we all the same?

after what you've been through, can't i be worried for you? each time you're hurt, do you know i feel so crap-up for you?! each time you fall into depression, i feel so sh*tty!

okay, if you forgot your phone, i have nothing much to say. but do you know the way you just brush me off after that, i expected better from you, do you know that?! i called some of your friends, asking whether did you mentioned anything to them, that was how worried i was!

well, i didn't know life was so not worth living for! after all you've been through...!

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gosh... i'm having low blood pressure now. been having this sudden drop in sugar level for the past few days, just hope it's not something else i dread the most...

gosh, i ain't perfect!

i used to have thoughts of commiting suicide, imagine when i die, wondering who will come to my funeral, who will cry over my body. but HEY! i won't do THAT ANYMORE! life's still worth living!

i will be a good mother to my kids, i'll adopt kids too. i'll read to them story books every night, making them laugh with the very bad impersonation of the 3 lil' piggies. i'll kiss them good night, slobbering over them like a dog. i'll tell them how much i love them, unlike how little my mum has ever said such words to me...

shhh.

...I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry...

we're all growing, learning, loving, each time we take a breath on this earth, do you know that? each time we smile, laugh, frown, it's emotions EVOKED.

perhaps we lost people in our life, perhaps we love someone who those not return the favor, perhaps we might feel like ending our life now, please don't lose hope. Hope is a beautiful thing (somebody thought me this...! *winks). it makes you carry on with your life, no matter hard it could be...

...The path that I'm walking
I must go alone
I must take the baby steps 'til I'm full grown, full grown
Fairytales don't always have a happy ending, do they?
And I foresee the dark ahead if I stay...

slowly, you'll see how i feel.

...Like the little school mate in the school yard
We'll play jacks and uno cards
I'll be your best friend and you'll be my Valentine
Yes you can hold my hand if you want to
'Cause I want to hold yours too
We'll be playmates and lovers and share our secret worlds
But it's time for me to go home
It's getting late, dark outside
I need to be with myself and center, clarity
Peace, Serenity...

I'M ECCENTRIC, don't forget this fact!!!!

Labels: adopt, afterthoughts, boo-yeah, change, dissapointed, don't cry, gaah, gimme, grown up, help, hurts, lost, love, more than words, over you, panic, thanks, unrequited love, what about maturity

listening: thks fr th mmrs by FALLOUT BOY
mood: very DISAPPOINTED

>> do you know how worried i was...? i was so scared that something happened to you, that i really felt so lost. i could have marched my a** up to your shop, to seriously get a f*cking answer from you, do you know that...?

...I'm gonna make you bend and break
(It sent you to me without wings)
Say a prayer but let the good times roll
In case God doesn't show
(Let the good times roll, let the good times roll)
And I want these words to make things right
But it's the wrongs that make the words come to life
"Who does he think he is?"
If that's the worst you got
Better put your fingers back to the keys...

do you know why THOSE things are happening to you...? do you know EXACTLY why? it's just so hard to make you understand that the world does not only revolves around you? i've tried so hard, yet you seem to have never taken me as a friend of yours. gosh, i should have seen that coming.

you're DAMN lucky that i have dedicated this whole bl**dy f*cking entry for you, i've never done that to others, yet you 'have' to be the FIRST.

...Been looking forward to the future
But my eyesight is going bad
And this crystal ball
It's always cloudy except for (except for)
When you look into the past (look into the past)
One night stand (one night stand off)...<<

what a 'PERFECT' song for the 'PERFECT' mood.

whoa. been slacking at home ever since holiday started last week. hahaX. i better start revising on my o level's subjects ar, can't have myself failing those unbearable subjects again, can't i...?



saw that...? my daughter is just so kawaii....!!! XD hahaX. that's Souffle btw, i have another pinky by the name of liEn, read as lI-An. gosh, souffle's cute...! whee~

hahaX. i think i shall cosplay as harry potter for my upcoming photoshoot ne... XD yeah! and Kit says he'll be coming...!!!! whee...!

...One night and one more time
Thanks for the memories
even though they weren't so great
"He tastes like you only sweeter"
One night, yeah, and one more time
Thanks for the memories, thanks for the memories
"He, he tastes like you only sweeter"...

well, i've gotta geton with life, eh...?

Labels: afterthoughts, dissapointed, hurts, more than words, pinky st:, souffle, what about maturity

listening: sul cocuzzolo - lisa ono
mood: EMO, again. >,<

*stares at screen* lots of things have happened recently ne... shh... will only say little stuff about THOSE stuff.

Hougang Sec was on TV on 3th August! yahoo! XD hahaX. i was watching the news on channel 8, when i saw my ex-principal commenting about the integration of special & express stream. yahoo for HOUGANG SECONDARY! XD

everyone hears what you say
friends listen to what you say
good friends listen to what you don't say

isn't it true...?

i went to the toa payoh photo gallery, also on saturday too. i am so IMPRESSED by the photographers! imagine how long they took, just to get that PERFECT shot! i don feel the pain too, cause i did that once, but it did paid off. XD it's real INSPIRING...!

'when you let love guide your actions, you start to tread the path that leads towards contentment'

true. love does tred its way through our hearts, leaving us feeling for satisfied. love is ALWAYS much stronger than hatred, it's so PROVEN in the HARRY POTTER series ne! love is the bEST you'll ever receive from anyone!

like a lake is always full
the heart of a kind person is always filled with love

Labels: afterthoughts, change, harry potter, lisa ono, love, memories, more than words

#1 - i'm GOING to SERIOUSLY get over that JERK. yeah, one usless crap on earth, corrupts the environment. yes, they do. f*ck euu.

#2 - i'm in contact with 2 of my secondary school teachers again! XD hahaX. after don't know how many DONKEY months since i've contacted them. hahaX. just hope i ain't too late.

#3 - i wanna read more novels!!!! i want to read more books ne, but like not much nice one to read, especially mangas. sheesh, standards have went down ne.

#4 - *sigh* i'm tired, i need my sleep.

Labels: bleh, FUCK YOU, grown up, hurts, memories, more than words, time

listening: never again - kelly clarkson
mood: more P*SEED then ever...

you're just one of the UGLIEST people i've ever seen. gosh. really ugly. and i'm not talking about looks. i couldn't believe you to do that to me...! what an ugly heart you have. you better lose them now, you'll be even more heartless than those you see in KINGDOM HEARTS.

...I hope the ring you gave to her turns her finger green
I hope when your in bed with her, you think of me
I would never wish bad things, but I don't wish you well
Could you tell, by the flames that burned your words...

you never bothered to know people, do you?

...Does it hurt to know I'll never be there
Bet it sucks, to see my face everywhere
It was you, who chose to end it like you did
I was the last to know
You knew exactly what you would do
And don't say, you simply lost your way
She may believe you but I never will
Never again...

i'll never again believe you... you a**hole... you think you can ripped my heart and go off pretending nthg ever happened, eh?! guess what! no such thing! not even in this lifetime! gosh, i wish you were never born...

...If she really knows the truth, she deserves you
A trophy wife, oh how cute
Ignorance is bliss
But when your day comes, and he's through with you
And he'll be through with you
You'll die together but alone...

i'll make sure i'll reveal your d*rty lil' secrets, who knows whether have you hurt anyone else that i lurve and care for... sheesh. i can't trust you now, neither will i in the future.

you're just one DISGUSTING GIT. can you just die or something?

curs>> by the way, if haldir keeps attacking you. show her this post of mine.

haldir>> please shut your bl**dy trap for everyone is so P*ssed with your all-so-saint remarks about people from my team. gosh, you're DAMN "NAIVE" eh?! you don't own harry potter for merlin's-sake! you're already how old for pete's sake? grow up! you do any sh*t again, seriously, i'll make sure you can't sleep for the next bl**dy one week. just SHUT UP, will 'ya?

sarahcoldheart>> i'll suggest you to opened your sesame-sized eyes to look at what type of friends you're mixing with. it's disgusting to have such people around.

i've had it. JUST SHUT UP AND DIE.

Labels: afterthoughts, AVADA KECAVRA, bleh, cheated, cosFUCK, cursendra, FUCK YOU, grown up, harry potter, memories, more than words, over you

listening: the stupid things by jesse macartney
mood: how do i feel about you...?

well, now am logging in from school self-access room... hmm... too many things on my mind le...

finoa>> my lurve... i'm sorry if i really made you upset last night... >,< i'm really sorry...! plaese forgive me...! >,<

...And all the stupid things I do
Have absolutely no reflection on
How I feel about you
How I feel ohhh
All the stupid things I do have absolutely no reflection on
How I feel about you
How I feel about you, yeah...

hush, hush, there are many wonders in life... there are also things that i wil not understand now... but i promise you, i'll do what i've promised you, unlike those people you know....<<

...I used to be someone
Who only really thought about
Themselves and no one else
And you could tell baby
But that's before
I understood
That when you've
Got something this good
Gotta let her know
And I want you to know...

shhhh... let's run away to somewhere... we'll lie in the grass, counting the stars in the dark skies, making wishes on every shooting star we see... slowly i'll look into your eyes, caressing your cheek, confessing how much i feel for you...

(p.s. it's pretty random ehhh...)

Labels: afterthoughts, hugs and lurves, hurts, more than words

...Saying I love you
Is not the words I want to hear from you
It's not that I want you
Not to say, but if you only knew
How easy it would be to show me how you feel
More than words is all you have to do to make it real
Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me
Cos I'd already know...

to a certain onii-chan of mine...>>*sigh* i dun want to go back into e relationship again, after being hurt... doesn't mean that i'm SINGLE, i have to get a boyfriend right? you are now just my onii-chan, nothing else... i cant give you that LAST chance anymore, cause you BLEW IT! anyway, i have told what type of a guy/man that i want, and i shall say it again. I want a man who's after God's favor. i don't want a man who BLAMES everything on the fault of the women, cause it takes 2 to clap. gaah... it's affecting me again... ptui~<<

>,< finally found out what was the problem with my blog ar. forgot to remove another code thgy... sheesh. i'm just DUMB w/ things relating to the computer...

roxas80>> i'm really sorry, for making such a selfish request...!!!!! gomen, laogong~~~ >,<

claude>> eek~ get well soon 'kay...? XD mummy kiss euu~~

hmm... so long no read YAOI fanfics le... i better find smthg nice to read... probably smthg w/ SWEET LURVE~ XP esp b/w yaoi lurvers... sweet...

sheesh. i find harry + sevvy pairings pretty adorable, that i'm writing one myself... sweet lURVE!

another 13 days or so to HARRY POTTER & the ORDER of PHOENIX!!!!! XD

Labels: afterthoughts, change, more than words, over you, yaoi