some of guys might know, i am opening a booth this cosfest, helping out at Chunky & Drizzle.



Guess what. I am utterly disappointed.




1. at the speed the organisers are getting back to performers/booth owners

you did not even bother acknowledge our email, what more entertaining our enquiries.





2. at the speed the ticketing company is supposed to get back to the booth owners

WTF?! YOU WANT ME TO PAY UP THE WEEK BEFORE COSFEST?! CAN'T YOU DO THAT WEEKS BEFORE INSTEAD OF ALL THESE LAST MINUTES NONSENSE?!

thank god my schedule ain't packed, if not i am gonna OMFGWTFBBQ you guys.





3. sigh, the more i say, the more p*ssed i get, why bother?

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guess what? you guys gotta improve. utter disappointment.

ARGH.





IMPROVE, PEOPLE, IMPROVE.


NO F*CKERS WILL WAIT FOR YOU SLOWPOKES. D8

Labels: 2009, dissapointed, events

i've learned, over this past 1 year,





people,


are the most




DISGUSTING


when they are






HYPOCRITES.

Labels: 2009, disgust, dissapointed, feelings, friends

dear 'MR XH'

cheebye lar.

you owe me my pictures for over 5 months already, and you still got the &*%^ cheeks to post pictures for other cosplayers?!

don't think i am not watching you, my eyes are always on you. i chose to turn a blind eye to it anyway.

i am utterly disappointed. because i treated you as a friend, but you don't.

YOU BETTER GIVE ME MY PICTURES BEFORE COSFEST. I AM NOT NICE TO TRIFLE WITH WHEN I AM MAD.

Labels: 2009, cheated, dissapointed, feelings, friends, FUCK YOU

listening: big girls don't cry - FERGIE (boo-yeah!)
mood: blank. *ptui

you see, you have proven me right! and you finally knew the entry was dedicated to you!

you blame me for not having MSN?! bl**dy trivial! i'm not using hotmail anymore by the way!

maybe i am a kid trying to be an adult, gosh, aren't we all the same?

after what you've been through, can't i be worried for you? each time you're hurt, do you know i feel so crap-up for you?! each time you fall into depression, i feel so sh*tty!

okay, if you forgot your phone, i have nothing much to say. but do you know the way you just brush me off after that, i expected better from you, do you know that?! i called some of your friends, asking whether did you mentioned anything to them, that was how worried i was!

well, i didn't know life was so not worth living for! after all you've been through...!

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gosh... i'm having low blood pressure now. been having this sudden drop in sugar level for the past few days, just hope it's not something else i dread the most...

gosh, i ain't perfect!

i used to have thoughts of commiting suicide, imagine when i die, wondering who will come to my funeral, who will cry over my body. but HEY! i won't do THAT ANYMORE! life's still worth living!

i will be a good mother to my kids, i'll adopt kids too. i'll read to them story books every night, making them laugh with the very bad impersonation of the 3 lil' piggies. i'll kiss them good night, slobbering over them like a dog. i'll tell them how much i love them, unlike how little my mum has ever said such words to me...

shhh.

...I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry...

we're all growing, learning, loving, each time we take a breath on this earth, do you know that? each time we smile, laugh, frown, it's emotions EVOKED.

perhaps we lost people in our life, perhaps we love someone who those not return the favor, perhaps we might feel like ending our life now, please don't lose hope. Hope is a beautiful thing (somebody thought me this...! *winks). it makes you carry on with your life, no matter hard it could be...

...The path that I'm walking
I must go alone
I must take the baby steps 'til I'm full grown, full grown
Fairytales don't always have a happy ending, do they?
And I foresee the dark ahead if I stay...

slowly, you'll see how i feel.

...Like the little school mate in the school yard
We'll play jacks and uno cards
I'll be your best friend and you'll be my Valentine
Yes you can hold my hand if you want to
'Cause I want to hold yours too
We'll be playmates and lovers and share our secret worlds
But it's time for me to go home
It's getting late, dark outside
I need to be with myself and center, clarity
Peace, Serenity...

I'M ECCENTRIC, don't forget this fact!!!!

Labels: adopt, afterthoughts, boo-yeah, change, dissapointed, don't cry, gaah, gimme, grown up, help, hurts, lost, love, more than words, over you, panic, thanks, unrequited love, what about maturity

listening: thks fr th mmrs by FALLOUT BOY
mood: very DISAPPOINTED

>> do you know how worried i was...? i was so scared that something happened to you, that i really felt so lost. i could have marched my a** up to your shop, to seriously get a f*cking answer from you, do you know that...?

...I'm gonna make you bend and break
(It sent you to me without wings)
Say a prayer but let the good times roll
In case God doesn't show
(Let the good times roll, let the good times roll)
And I want these words to make things right
But it's the wrongs that make the words come to life
"Who does he think he is?"
If that's the worst you got
Better put your fingers back to the keys...

do you know why THOSE things are happening to you...? do you know EXACTLY why? it's just so hard to make you understand that the world does not only revolves around you? i've tried so hard, yet you seem to have never taken me as a friend of yours. gosh, i should have seen that coming.

you're DAMN lucky that i have dedicated this whole bl**dy f*cking entry for you, i've never done that to others, yet you 'have' to be the FIRST.

...Been looking forward to the future
But my eyesight is going bad
And this crystal ball
It's always cloudy except for (except for)
When you look into the past (look into the past)
One night stand (one night stand off)...<<

what a 'PERFECT' song for the 'PERFECT' mood.

whoa. been slacking at home ever since holiday started last week. hahaX. i better start revising on my o level's subjects ar, can't have myself failing those unbearable subjects again, can't i...?



saw that...? my daughter is just so kawaii....!!! XD hahaX. that's Souffle btw, i have another pinky by the name of liEn, read as lI-An. gosh, souffle's cute...! whee~

hahaX. i think i shall cosplay as harry potter for my upcoming photoshoot ne... XD yeah! and Kit says he'll be coming...!!!! whee...!

...One night and one more time
Thanks for the memories
even though they weren't so great
"He tastes like you only sweeter"
One night, yeah, and one more time
Thanks for the memories, thanks for the memories
"He, he tastes like you only sweeter"...

well, i've gotta geton with life, eh...?

Labels: afterthoughts, dissapointed, hurts, more than words, pinky st:, souffle, what about maturity

watching: diana - last day of a princess
mood: real DISSAPOINTED.

gaah. was on the phone with qinying just now. was talking to her about a costume request that happened a few months back. well, i actually commisioned SOMEONE, i'll call the person 'rose' in this case. i wanted 'rose' to do a 'unknown' dress for me. and rose did. but you know...? it was SECOND-HAND!!!! rose could have told me in the first place...! and 'rose' also promised me to do another pants for free...! but now, i haven't got any... >,< just so dissapointed with 'rose'...

my class got assigned to do an extra credit project wor... problem, is there are not much information about the people we are supposed to search for... >,< aiyo. must work harder ne...

i'm craving for... KIMCHI...!!!!! XD

Labels: 'rose', dissapointed, extra credit project, hospitality operations