Do you hear me? I'm talking to you Across the water across the deep blue ocean Under the open sky, oh my, baby I'm trying
Boy I hear you in my dreams I feel your whisper across the sea I keep you with me in my heart You make it easier when life gets hard
I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend Lucky to have been where I have been Lucky to be coming home again Ooh ooh ooh
They don't know how long it takes Waiting for a love like this Every time we say goodbye I wish we had one more kiss I'll wait for you I promise you, I will
I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend Lucky to have been where I have been Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we're in love in every way Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
going to prepare for an awesomely cute Seychelles cosplay in October. *I will release details soon, once the group has confirmed the details for release* **some dA watchers knows about it, but stay quiet for now, okie? Heehee.
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Thanks guys for the concern.
Though you might have asked me what exactly had happened, I know that you still care.
Let me say this, I love you too, as my family, lover and friends. :)
Song: Vanilla Twilight Singer: Owl City Songwriters: Young, Adam;
The stars lean down to kiss you And I lie awake and miss you Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere
'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly But I'll miss your arms around me I'd send a postcard to you, dear 'Cause I wish you were here
I'll watch the night turn light-blue But it's not the same without you Because it takes two to whisper quietly
The silence isn't so bad 'Til I look at my hands and feel sad 'Cause the spaces between my fingers Are right where yours fit perfectly
I'll find repose in new ways Though I haven't slept in two days 'Cause cold nostalgia Chills me to the bone
But drenched in vanilla twilight I'll sit on the front porch all night Waist-deep in thought because When I think of you I don't feel so alone
I don't feel so alone, I don't feel so alone
As many times as I blink I'll think of you tonight I'll think of you tonight
When violet eyes get brighter And heavy wings grow lighter I'll taste the sky and feel alive again
And I'll forget the world that I knew But I swear I won't forget you Oh, if my voice could reach Back through the past I'd whisper in your ear Oh darling, I wish you were here
When I woke up, I was alone In a room painted black I couldn't see or hear anything One person shivering in the darkness
The cieling had a large hole It was easy to see a big spring in it Suddenly there was a sound I knew this ghastly voice
"Boy's crimes are getting old" "You're far from me forever" "It left from this room" it said
Remembering all of that moment Naturally repeating that sin over and over Realizing the reason it all ended Having to go back to those days
Both of my arms are in red handcuffs Someone is surely spilling the colour of blood Both of my ankles are in blue chains They are surely the colour of someone's tears
"Ru ri ra ru ri ra.." the song said Who seems to be singing this lullaby..
How much time seems to go by Searching for the changing spring Suddenly I hear A singing voice to heal me
One day I notice That the song has a real meaning And now it's my lullaby New words are added to it
From the opening of the spring A tiny northern light Very surely You're giving a message
The spring's surroundings start to talk quietly "It's not that your sins aren't tolerated" However, the water spoke and evil spoke We will try to change those facts
The red handcuffs fall off and I start to talk "After this, you will be born again" The blue shackles fall off and I talk to you "Today is your new Birthday"
Everything around us is dyed white Very soon we will meet again
It gets pretty amazing to me at times, about human nature. It seems like everyone’s so contradicting, myself included.
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People will come up to me and tell me stuff like how so-and-so left him/her out and literally kick them out of their lives. Then they leave you after they are done with you. Isn’t it contradicting?
If you dislike people leaving you in the lurch when you need them, why don’t you not do it to others too? The kettle calling the pot black, you know that?
Sometimes you got to ask yourself, it might be the so-and-so’s fault, but always remember this. It takes 1 to know, 2 to clap. So it also meant that you might have also done something in return for so-and-so reciprocate. So don’t go blaming them for leaving you, you made your choice, so did they.
But sometimes I think you wouldn’t understand how much it meant, afterall you’re still a XMM.
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There are times I need to leave my relationships too. Many might wonder I must be cold-hearted to do it, but guess what? I am not. I choose to end it faster and earlier as it wouldn’t be fair for me to carry on something which seriously will not change.
Why would anyone still continue to wait for changes that will never ever happen?
So it means I will also not hesitate to leave you if I have to. Be it my friends, lover, family.
--- I would say I am a very reasonable person within reasonable means.
You treat me well, I will treat you well back in return.
You don’t treat me well, just head to Hell alright? Someone I know has already reserved the spot for you.
If you continue to keep things to yourself and start your nonsense like emo-ing, please don’t mind if I fuck you up. You deserve it so badly that you didn’t realized that people like us have been real patient to wait. To wait for you to tell us what is going on.
I can actually give you an actual solution to your problem.
JUST LET IT GO.
There isn’t any point for you to continue on like this, torturing both yourself and your friends. You should see through the problem, all you need to do is to learn to let go. I would empathies with you as I have been through similar route before. The answer was all along in front of me, yet I couldn’t do so myself. I learned it the hard way, family couldn’t understand exactly the problem, friends left me and me? I was stuck in this dark place, not knowing my next step.
Aren’t you one lucky child? To have us all around you?
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Why is it so amazing that certain people love to play stunts on facebook? Like changing your relationship status ever so quickly? This isn’t a fashion show, my dear.
Do you know changing your relationship status frequently, shows your confusion about love? Like how much one might be confused about their sexuality?
Show your maturity by holding yourself back to see the actual problem in your relationship, rather than being a ‘show-off’, switching your relationship status every few days. It’s an eyesore especially if you do it more than 3 times.
You realized he might not have been loving you like how you do to him. But do note, in love, there will always be one party who loves more than the other. It’s a strange concept to explain, perhaps only experiencing it thoroughly you would really comprehend the situation. So be a strong girl and work it out?
You probably lack the inner peace, like what I have been telling the BF for some time already.
--- I dislike long status updates on facebook. It seems to have turned into an essay not an update. Probably I should email the facebook management to create a word limit for your account.
Do you know why I dislike long updates? Cause it’s like an never-ending advertisement.
In advertising, you should have punchlines and brings in suckers to buy your products. If you were to see long-winded advertisement slogans, won’t you get irritated? You probably get so turned-off, everytime you see it in the media, be it print, tv or radio, you would roll your eyes so often.
Please note I am also an old lady, the font size seems to have shrunk through time, so please don’t bother to test my eyesight further okay?
--- I love it when certain people asks stupid questions to someone about me being close with a certain person.
Guess what honey? Mind your own business, sensei.
You are no one to me, so don’t go snooping around like Snoop Dog. I can get you a leash if you want though.
If I hear such things again, your name is going down in history.
*p.s. plus personal stuff I can ‘find’ about you *p.s.s. I am a stalker on the sideline.
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It doesn’t really matter to me if you think I am talking about YOU, because I think I have done my part . If you think I am , good for you and improve on your ‘human nature’. If not, still learn from these failures and not repeat the same mistakes again.
Yours Sincerely The JAWS* who is going through bad mood swings
Smile tho' your heart is aching, Smile Even though it's breaking, When there are clouds in the sky- You'll get by, If you Smile through your fear and sorrow, Smile and maybe tomorrow You'll see the sun come shining through- For you.
Light up your face with gladness, Hide ev'ry trace of sadness, Altho' a tear may be ever so near, That's the time (thats the time) you must keep on trying, Smile- What's the use of crying, You'll find that life is still worthwhile, If you just smile.
Ohhh Oooh Yeah
That's the time (thats the time) you must keep on trying, Smile- What's the use of crying, You'll find that life is still worthwhile, If you just smile.
Smile tho' your heart is aching, Smile Even though it's breaking, When there are clouds in the sky- You'll get by,
That's the time (thats the time) you must keep on trying, Smile- What's the use of crying, You'll find that life is still worthwhile, If you just You'll find that life is still worthwhile, If you just smile.
Song: Music Again Singer: Adam Lambert Album: For Your Entertainment
I want your body, mind, soul, et cetera And one day you'll see, you should give it to me And I don't want anyone instead of ya Oh babe I'm goin crazy, come on and give it to me And I ain't never met nobody better-er You're someone else's baby
I'm so sick of living for other people Took meeting you to realise I don't wanna lose ya, I wanna keep ya
Put your little hand in mine and Look into my eyes, baby eyes Oh you make me wanna listen to music again Yeah you make me wanna listen to music again
There had been many moons before I met ya And I ain't going nowhere And now you give me back my raison d'être And I'm inspired again
And I know in some ways we're kinda evil Got my roots and you've got ties But my heart's no stranger to upheaval
Put your little hand in mine and Look into my eyes, baby eyes Oh you make me wanna listen to music again Yeah you make me wanna listen to music again
Ahhh music again Look in to my eyes very eyes I just wanna listen to music again Oh yeah oh yeah oh yeah wooh oh hey!
I'm so sick of living for other people Took meeting you to realize I don't wanna lose ya, I wanna keep ya
Put your little hand in mine and Look into my eyes very eyes, whoa Oh you make me wanna listen to music again, whoa Yeah you make me wanna listen to music again, whoa Oh you make me wanna listen to music again, whoa Yeah you make me wanna listen to music again
There might be people reading this, there might not be either.
but i would still like to pen down my thoughts and my feelings.
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dear everyone
from my past few entries, some might know i have been on an emotional roller coaster ride for quite a while.
this is how i am exactly feeling now.
depress. unmotivated. unhappy.
there are times i am just afraid, too afraid to say, too afraid to feel, too afraid to ask for a hug.
1* i met my grandma last Saturday, after material shopping with dmsasaki and rish. i was told that my grandma slipped and fell last Tuesday, bruising her knee and her arm.
She saw me and asked if i knew what had happened over the week. and i lied to her, i didn't know what went on (partly true, as my mum only informed me the day before, which is a Friday).
she explained, what had happened. and cheekily mentioned she might go anytime, seeing it as a sign/clue.
i replied back, "Ah Ma, me too." She look back, probably surprised that i would say such thing, esp. my image to her was a cheeky monkey who does childish stuff.
2* i don't want to be left alone. i am scared, like anyone else, though it might look as if i don't care.
during my birthday, people i expected to drop me an sms to wish me a happy birthday, did not do so. how disappointing.
that's why i said i was crying all day long.
all i wanted was someone to take me away just for one day on my brithday, just one day, was it so hard?
3* work. sucks. for. now.
my colleague left, without proper handover being done. i had to clean up her mess, and i hate it. people here are just revealing their trueself over the time.
politics. taichi. backstabbing.
it ain't fun, i would say. IT jsut riles you up, making you p*ssed because people don't seem to see that they are being an a**hole. (or maybe they knew what type of a person they are already.)
4* my smses, half the time, are being ignored by people whom i need answers from.
if this is what you want to do, i can't say/comment much either.
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for this post, this concludes my feelings i have been harbouring all this while.
i still thank those who had shown concerned, be it via tagboards, sms or meet-ups.
many thanks in advance
yours sincerely the girl who couldn't see Amelia Ang/suki.luna/JAWS*
meet up with my HPO peeps'. *JAWS miss YOU. DX **I dunnoe what will I do without you guys. ***everyone seem to be blogging about the same topic desuka...? DX ****JOO ISH EBIL, MAKING JAWS TEAR LIAOZ. *****COME BACK, JOO HPO PEEPS. BEFORE JAWS REALLY BITE... ;_;
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