Wednesday, 12 August 2009 @ 2:35:00 pm
to do list: that includes Pasta-Boy
"I am not really a tomato box fairy...!"*gets bricked**愚か者~----To-do List:- DIVA: Star Date (Solo/Duo)- PASTA Ah Boy: Sailor- CHIBI GREEN: Nyan Nyan- OMNITRIX: Young & Old- THE BOY WHO LIVED (maybe): School Days- DIVA: 妖精 (final project)Labels: cosplay, friends, love, not looking, notes, photoshoots, to-do list
Friday, 7 August 2009 @ 8:45:00 pm
saying what it hurts the most
There might be people reading this, there might not be either.
but i would still like to pen down my thoughts and my feelings.
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dear everyone
from my past few entries, some might know i have been on an emotional roller coaster ride for quite a while.
this is how i am exactly feeling now.
depress. unmotivated. unhappy.
there are times i am just afraid, too afraid to say, too afraid to feel, too afraid to ask for a hug.
1*
i met my grandma last Saturday, after material shopping with dmsasaki and rish. i was told that my grandma slipped and fell last Tuesday, bruising her knee and her arm.
She saw me and asked if i knew what had happened over the week. and i lied to her, i didn't know what went on (partly true, as my mum only informed me the day before, which is a Friday).
she explained, what had happened. and cheekily mentioned she might go anytime, seeing it as a sign/clue.
i replied back, "Ah Ma, me too." She look back, probably surprised that i would say such thing, esp. my image to her was a cheeky monkey who does childish stuff.
2*
i don't want to be left alone. i am scared, like anyone else, though it might look as if i don't care.
during my birthday, people i expected to drop me an sms to wish me a happy birthday, did not do so. how disappointing.
that's why i said i was crying all day long.
all i wanted was someone to take me away just for one day on my brithday, just one day, was it so hard?
3*
work. sucks. for. now.
my colleague left, without proper handover being done. i had to clean up her mess, and i hate it. people here are just revealing their trueself over the time.
politics.
taichi.
backstabbing.
it ain't fun, i would say. IT jsut riles you up, making you p*ssed because people don't seem to see that they are being an a**hole. (or maybe they knew what type of a person they are already.)
4*
my smses, half the time, are being ignored by people whom i need answers from.
if this is what you want to do, i can't say/comment much either.
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for this post, this concludes my feelings i have been harbouring all this while.
i still thank those who had shown concerned, be it via tagboards, sms or meet-ups.
many thanks in advance
yours sincerely
the girl who couldn't see
Amelia Ang/suki.luna/JAWS*
Labels: 2009, feelings, life, not looking, truth
Thursday, 8 January 2009 @ 9:37:00 pm
potatoe tomato
damnit.
i wanna cut my hair short.
but just hate it when people mistake me for a boy with short hair.
WTH.
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please don't tell me to wear a wig.
it's obvious lar...
Labels: caturday, gaah, indifferent, not looking, RANDOM, screwed
Tuesday, 9 December 2008 @ 9:05:00 am
i am pleased...
....to say that, "I'M NOT HAPPY TO BE IN THIS DEPARTMENT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" *glares*
*My last entry in this blog was towards my BOSS, no offence to anyone.
GAAH!!!!!
越说越气死人了!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Labels: HPO, not looking, over you, p*ssed, ruBBISH, SCREW OFF LAR
Monday, 5 November 2007 @ 12:23:00 pm
have you ever felt like...
mood: i don't know, everything's in a mess now...
listening: Right Where You Want Me by JESSE MCCARTNEY
gosh. why do i feel that everything in my mind is in a mess?! i can't seem to get anything right at all... feel like crap...
...Girl,
There's something 'bout me that you ought to know.
I've never felt the need to lose control.
Always held on back and played it slow.
But not this time.
Baby, don't be gentle,
I can handle anything...
let me set things straight before i throw myself of the cliff. Yes, i'm single and VERY AVAILABLE now. but right now, i'm not ready to be in a relationship. i don't want to be the vulnerable one in the relationship, i don't want to get so scared each time i'm w/ a guy, i want that guy to be CHOSEN by GOD.
...Baby,
Take me on a journey.
I've been thinking lately,
I could use a little time alone with you.
Crazy,
Let's do something, maybe.
Please don't take your time,
You got me,
Right where you want me...
i'm afraid of being CHEATED. i'm afraid of losing my MIND. i'm afraid of hurting my LOVE ONES.
yes, i'll be lonely being SINGLE, but do you think it's really a problem to me? no, it's not a problem to me, at all. though it's getting tempting now to be in a relationship, i will stay abide what i've promised to myself, and also to GOD.
i admit, i ain't no goody-goody CHRISTIAN, i stll have more to learn in LIFE!
...Can't explain it,
How you swept me off my feet, unexpectedly.
In slow motion,
My imagination's running, trying to keep my body still,
I can hardly stand the thrill...
so please, i'm not LOOKING for LOVE NOW!!!
...Baby,
Take me on a journey.
I've been thinking lately,
I could use a little time alone with you.
Crazy,
Let's do something, maybe.
Please don't take your time,
You got me,
Right where you want me...
Labels: afterthoughts, gaah, God's LurvE, grown up, lost, love, lurve ones, not looking, sweet lurve, tears, what about maturity
suki.luna/jaws/AMELIA
