It’s funny when you found it so easy to rattle things off your mouth, without giving a thought for what I did. Was it so easy for you to pin the blame on me, when it is others who don’t give the chance?
You told me your girlfriend saw your messages and she went crazy. But have you realized how lonely my nights were without you? How much I was pining for you to take me away from where I am?
You are mad because I could not give you what you wanted, because taking was the easiest for you. Don’t’ you ever put words in my mouth about me being demanding, it goes to you too.
I don’t fucking care, if your sister is my good friend, and some people might read this, because I don’t fucking bother about you anymore.
I don’t exist, neither do you.
*I added you at Facebook, it’s really up to you to accept it, fucker.
raidaime: you told me not to bother with this type of bastard anymore, i am taking up your words on this. love you. :)
was on MC yesterday as lately I have been having quite a bad bout of gastritis.
The doctor was saying that if it were to persist any longer, even after the increase dosage of medication, she would refer me to the hospital for a scope.
It's not that I do not want to have proper meals, but try having a Director of Sales who don't seem to empathise the fact I suffer from gastric from time to time, and sometimes even get sudden attacks, it's not helping at all.
Your view on yourself: You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for: You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship: You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love: You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?
Your views on education Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you: You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.
How do you view success: You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
What are you most afraid of: You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.
Who is your true self: You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
Rule One: You will receive a body. You may love it or hate it, but it will be yours for the duration of your life on Earth.
Rule Two: You will be presented with lessons. You are enrolled in a full-time informal school called 'life.' Each day in this school you will have the opportunity to learn lessons. You may like the lessons or hate them, but you have designed them as part of your curriculum.
Rule Three: There are no mistakes, only lessons. Growth is a process of experimentation, a series of trials, errors, and occasional victories. The failed experiments are as much a part of the process as the experiments that work.
Rule Four: A lesson is repeated until learned. Lessons will be repeated to you in various forms until you have learned them. When you have learned them, you can then go on to the next lesson.
Rule Five: Learning does not end. There is no part of life that does not contain lessons. If you are alive, there are lessons to be learned.
Rule Six: 'There' is no better than 'here'. When your 'there' has become a 'here,' you will simply obtain a 'there' that will look better to you than your present 'here'.
Rule Seven: Others are only mirrors of you. You cannot love or hate something about another person unless it reflects something you love or hate about yourself.
Rule Eight: What you make of your life is up to you. You have all the tools and resources you need. What you do with them is up to you.
Rule Nine: Your answers lie inside of you. All you need to do is look, listen, and trust.
Rule Ten: You will forget all of this at birth. You can remember it if you want by unravelling the double helix of inner knowing.
--Cherie Carter-Scott, From "If Life is a Game, These are the Rules" http://www.ijourney.org/audio.php?op=play&tid=521
The High Priestess is the card of knowledge, instinctual, supernatural, secret knowledge.
She holds scrolls of arcane information that she might, or might not reveal to you.
The moon crown on her head as well as the crescent by her foot indicates her willingness to illuminate what you otherwise might not see, reveal the secrets you need to know.
The High Priestess is also associated with the moon however and can also indicate change or fluxuation, particularily when it comes to your moods.
i am going to erase you slowly out of my life, that you do not know what had striked you, b*tch.
I told you once, i will tell you one last time.
our 6/7 years of friendship is down the drains. i did what i could to be a friend to you, but you blew it on your own.
don't blame me if you find yourself alone on the streets. don't blame me if you find what i said all comes true. don't blame me if you find that i am wrong.
Mood: Touché, or something else… Listening: Take Your Sweet Time by Jesse McCartney
I was watching America’s Got Talent, which started on Thursday 3rd September 2008, 7.30pm on Channel 5.
Didn’t realised there so much of talents lurking around. A boy who could stick the tongue reaching his bottom eyelid, little girl singing touching people’s hearts, a transsexual impersonating, or rather, mastered the skill of being Britney Spears (He’s one of the few men I’ve seen doing a great job as her). But what had caught my attention, was this huge fella’ doing opera.
They had a mini interview about this man. He is an insurance salesman and he is 32 years old. He talked about his mother being the moral support for him, the light of his life. He began to had tears in his eyes, talking about how is mother painstakingly brought him up with his brother. He said that he wouldn’t be at the audition if not for his mother’s support. Tears continued rolling down his cheeks. This man got through the audition and the first thing he did was to call his mother, telling her that she had gotten in.
Wow. A grown man crying when he talks about his mother. I am touched, wouldn’t you be too? In my entire life, I have rarely seen man crying especially over his first love of his life, his mother. It just shows how much he is close with his mother, unlike other men these days.
If there’s such a man in Singapore, I’ll definitely marry him. Cause it means how much he appreciates his family. Tell me, how much man in Singapore will weep over how much his mother sacrifice for him throughout his growing years?
I want a man who appreciates his family members, not someone who ignores them when he reaches home from a long day in school/work/where-ever/whatever.
I want a man who will love me as the woman that I am, not some bl**dy f*ck toy. I am not one to begin with.
I’ve been in relationships before, things have happened to me before. But these won’t stop me in believing in finding that special man of my life. I know he is out there somewhere, as we pray for each other’s appearance in each other’s lives.
I’ll stay positive. I’ll stay pure for him.
Erm, I know, I sound kind of dreamy, kinda like Luna Lovegood (Pss, I think she’s real dreamy…). But a girl, no matter how, wants her PERFECT man, to be PERFECT (in her eyes, maybe…).
So yeah, JAWS wants a PERFECT man for her birthday next year! Gimme…!
mood: cheery! listening: Don't Stop The Music by Rihanna
rofl.
i just had my PHOTOSHOOT! and it was fun! and i think i saw shizukana-san there, as Kanda Yuu. Zeratul was my personal photographer for that day! he shot pretty good shots of me in lolita, which is like so adorable, that i was squealing so loudly at the old SUPREME COURT.
listening: stop and stare by one republic mood: *silently praying* GOD, LET ME HAPPY...!!!
projects are a lot (i don't believe that we have to submit them so soon...! *shriek*) over drive manga is super COOL PRINCESS SAKURA (in my list) IS A HARDCORE B*TCH (and i don't mean it as a compliment & never ever mention anything to me about her) TV watching is going to be LIMITED soon jobs-hunting a definite! am so SINGLE (who wants a man who seriously CONSTANTLY LIES to YOU...!) j-ROCK songs are making way into my mp3 money is definite neccesity in my life might get a part-time job soon! handphone not constantly with me (anything email or pm me on friendster/sgcafe) changing blogskin soon (need to do linking first)
i wish i could seriously blog on whatever happened to me in the past 3-4 months, but honestly, am so lazy....! lol.
1. Great Grandma & Grand-Uncle passed away within one week from each other. Great-Grandma went first, then Grand-Uncle. but honestly ar, i ain't close to either of them though it seems that my great grandma is kinda nice... she passed away about 2 weeks after Chinese New Year.
2. B*tches who seriously wanna b*tch about me (especially you, PRINCESS SAKURA/SAKURA-HIME/YUZHEN), do it in my face, man... i don't like cowards okay? you want to play dirty, make sure you don't leave clues behind...! want to cat fight? i'll find a cat that is in heat and let you 'play' with it. don't SERIOUSLY try to piss me off. you wouldn't want me to do anything to you, do ya...?
3. hmm... can't remember what i wanna type le... argh...
oh yeah, i've researching on how to do latte art, since entp project last semester. damn cool, man...! probably i'll do a presentation on that during assembly. even miss deon was also curious on how professional baristas do that. lol. when i have my café's ready (ORION café), i'll go learn how to be a barista...!!! woo-hoo!!!
Listening: Katrina – David Tao Mood: F*CKING P*SSED, HAPPY NOW?!
To be honest, I’m actually very, very p*ssed. And I am rarely seen doing the most absurd things, other than throwing a goddamn tantrum. Really, tantrums aren’t the worst of me.
When I get angry, I’ve actually got to hold my temper to the point, when actually there are times I’ve really wanted to hit someone. (Yes, I’ve got very bad temper…!) But each time, people have to just step over my head, going on “ATTACKING” me. Hey, I ain’t no sick cat.
I know I’ll do stupid things when I get real sh*tty p*ssed, that’s one of my reason of not hitting people. I even try to back down from a fight/quarrel at times when I know it’ll go to nowhere good for both of the parties, though I don’t really mind being “PHYSICAL”!
I know, this blog entry will not make any sense to anyone; it’s just that I’m real ANGRY!!! *Growl*
>>I feel so used! Each time I make the effort to something, you don’t seem to appreciate it! No point telling me that you want me. I feel like an sms-buddy of yours, I was never part of your life, I see…
I’m not good with words or with actions. I’m b*tchy. Irritating. Dumb. Insensitive. I’m not so feminine unlike the girls I know/mix with. They’re so soft, nice, sweet, understanding. I’m so MUCH like a guy at times, that sometimes I wonder whether am I a girl or a guy…<<
Maybe I’ll play…
Sh*t I never was patient. I never was the PERFECT dream girl. I never was what you wanted. I never trust people, EASILY, you know why?! Because I’m always being put down by people I care for, why do I actually have to bother to trust them in the first place? How many times have I trusted someone when each time I turn my back, he/she does something bad to me?! Have you bothered to understand me in the first place?! Have you ever bothered to keep your promise you made to me?!
If you have never ever thought of keeping your promises to me, I suggest we better stop being friends, I DO NOT like such people pretending to be part of my life. I have enough on my plate I don’t need yours. Don’t pretend you ever know me, cause I’m not what you see.
I’m not a f-ing s*ssy princess of yours, I’m the QUEEN. I’ll play with you, like a cat playing with its dinner. I’ll spin you round and round, till you get confused from what’s happening. I’ll be that puppeteer, controlling your every move, if that’s what you want. I’ll never be yours that is for sure…
Listening: Professor Umbridge – Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix OST Mood: oh, try p*ssing me off now…
Was with my mum just now during dinner, when I saw this scene in N*UC…
Man: “Do you have straw?” Cashier: “I’m sorry, we don’t have…” Man: “What you mean you don’t have straw?” Cashier: “I’m sorry, we don’t have straw.” *looks a little intimidated* Man: *stares angrily at cashier* What do you mean you don’t have straw?! I want to see your manager!”
Bl**dy a*sehole, you f*cking own N*UC issit? You think that cashier is your bl**dy maid/wife/whoever-you like-to-scold?! You think you freaking big size issit?! No bl**dy respect for people who’s pay are real damn pathetic…
Just one piece of straw, and you’re like a**. What if it is 2 piece of straws?! Are you going to frigging jump of the 15th storey building? If they don’t have straws, will you actually f*cking die? Why don’t just bring one around, anytime you can use it lar…
Gaah. I’ve should have taken your picture and put it on my blog, so I can frigging show the whole world your pathetic ugly face. Gaah. Show some bl**dy respect, arsehole!
I’ve been sick for the past few days, and I seriously hate my voice right now…! Grr.
I can’t wait to go for SOY event ne! I mean, imagine people I’ve not seen for quite sometime, except for some whom I often constantly keep in contact with! Also to support Togu too! But I hope I can make it for the competition too! As who? Won’t tell ya! But that character ish tottemo kawaii!!! Wufufu. Wakaka. *chokes, starts coughing* o-okay, okay… Better stop talking about SOY event le…!
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List 7 songs that you are into right now. No matter what the genre, whether they have words of even if they're not any good but they must be songs you're really enjoying now. Post these instructions in you LJ along with your 7 songs. Then tag 7 other people to see what they're listening to in absolute random order.
1. 近くて遠いゆめ – Hina Ichigo Character Album Single 2. My Anata – David Tao 3. Magic Works – Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire OST 4. Stronger – Kanye West 5. Clothes Off! – Gym Class Heroes 6. What If God Was One Of Us – Joan Osbourne 7. Yorokobi No Carol – Iwao Junko (Card Captor Sakura X’mas Carols)
oops. i haven't been updating my blog for a few dys/ weeks... >,<
news update...
#1 - had a picnic photoshoot just last saturday, 29/12/2007! a pity, it kept raining, but suki.luna had lots of fun with curs, togu, sakura hime, sandra and kit!!!! XD
#2 - i *might* be going for SOY event ne, but cosplayin-wise? probably as VK, hina ichigo of ROZEN MAIDEN or random yukata girl ba... but i wanna use my cat ears ne!!! XD heheX. *somehow i resemble ritsuka-chan...*
hmm. who should i really cosplay for the year of 2008 ne... *ponders*
-Li Syaoran of Card cAptor Sakura (project pairing with sakura hime) -waiter outfit (am sooooo INSPIRED after watching coffee prince on TV) -harry potter -ritsuka of LOVELESS -honey and clove character -kotobuki ran of SUPER GALS! Kotobuki Ran -Reno of Final Fantasy:Advent Children -Sakura of Tsubasa Reservoir Chronicle
shit. why did my yukata had to be of such sucky quality ar... argh. after getting my yukata from her, i went for my photoshoot, problem is, it started ripping at all those areas. luckily, curs was so sweet enough to help me sew some of the areas up, if not i couldn't carry on with the shoot.
recently saw this harry and severus pairing cosplay pic, totemo kawaii ii desuka? XD i can't wait to do such YAOI shoot, though curs will probably try to kick my a** or something... and it's nothing wrong in liking severus and harry pairing okay!!!! *forB*dden lub!*
mood: moo. moo. moo. listening: Bridge to the Other Side
there's a Class Outing going on next week, argh, i'll only be returning form KL on that day ar... how??? *sigh*
i should start on my new year resolutions soon, man... maybe one for every month, how bout thaT? then i must motivate myself to do them..!!! *gosh, aren't i lazy?*
was inspired by curs' entry on her blog recently...
i miss...
GOD CHURCh *i swear i ain't no goody 2 shoes christian* being free!!! some of my beloved friends i've not met for a very long time... cosplaying as someone i can really relate myself to... *curs, you, too... miss ya' nagging/SCOLDINGS!!!! XD*
gosh. i should really stop and take a lok around me, before i lose everything...
listening: Already Dead by THE WEASLEY KING mood: you shouldn't ask...
just realise the mood in class today, is just so... well, so... gaah. what's that word for it...? *sigh*
gimme HARRY POTTER ROCK MUSIC!!!! cause it's cool!!!! XD hahaX.
argh, "someone" nearly caught me blogging...!!! XD hahaX. well, i wouldn't want this sick bastard to catch me blogging, do i? XD hahaX.
am trying to blog and spam at the same time, but it just get so distracting man...
oh my...!!! didn't realise people are still listening to SPICE GIRLs!!!!! oh, that is so wrong man...i rather listen to local bands or smthg, more talents infused...!
100 is looking pretty likely for you right now. You've made your health a priority. So kick back, keep doing what you're doing, and enjoy the great life you've made for yourself. And you might get to see what the world is like 70, 80, or even 90 years from now.
suki.luna/jaws/AMELIA
