Wednesday, 28 January 2009 @ 10:54:00 am
ten rules for being human
Rule One:
You will receive a body. You may love it or hate it, but it will be yours for the duration of your life on Earth.
Rule Two:
You will be presented with lessons. You are enrolled in a full-time informal school called 'life.' Each day in this school you will have the opportunity to learn lessons. You may like the lessons or hate them, but you have designed them as part of your curriculum.
Rule Three:
There are no mistakes, only lessons. Growth is a process of experimentation, a series of trials, errors, and occasional victories. The failed experiments are as much a part of the process as the experiments that work.
Rule Four:
A lesson is repeated until learned. Lessons will be repeated to you in various forms until you have learned them. When you have learned them, you can then go on to the next lesson.
Rule Five:
Learning does not end. There is no part of life that does not contain lessons. If you are alive, there are lessons to be learned.
Rule Six:
'There' is no better than 'here'. When your 'there' has become a 'here,' you will simply obtain a 'there' that will look better to you than your present 'here'.
Rule Seven:
Others are only mirrors of you. You cannot love or hate something about another person unless it reflects something you love or hate about yourself.
Rule Eight:
What you make of your life is up to you. You have all the tools and resources you need. What you do with them is up to you.
Rule Nine:
Your answers lie inside of you. All you need to do is look, listen, and trust.
Rule Ten:
You will forget all of this at birth. You can remember it if you want by unravelling the double helix of inner knowing.
--Cherie Carter-Scott, From "If Life is a Game, These are the Rules"
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Saturday, 17 January 2009 @ 10:14:00 am
it's just a ONE-TIME thing.
About LOVE, what type of a person do you think you are?
For quite sometime, I think I am kind of like Usami Akihiko of Junjou Romantica. When it comes LOVE, you are willing to give up almost anything just to have the person you LOVE by your side. Well, I think I am somewhere between there, though I don’t think I really have the guts to give up EVERYTHING, to make the other party fall in love with you. *I draw a thin line somewhere you see.* I am envious at the part that Usami is able to give out his LOVE without feeling ashamed or whatsoever. Why can’t I be a little bit like this…?
I have been in and out of love, though I have NEVER cheated on anyone in my past relationships. Apparently, God has been kind enough to show what bastards my previous boyfriends were, one was in his 30s, another was sexually-deprived, and the very last guy, a cheating b*stard. One way or another, God was showing me things I have not realised at all. How His LOVE is greater than man on Earth were/are giving me.
It was real sweet that the first guy I dated, treated me like a princess, like a child, like I belonged somewhere. But there was something about him that was never assuring, that he was (and you think i will reveal on this public entry?!)… Things were kind of strange when I began thinking about our future. I took a step and broke up with him weeks later, citing that I am over and done with. And I heard that he left my previous company, probably couldn’t handle a rejection ay?
The second guy? A little close like the first one, but sadly, a sexually-deprived dude. Whenever we are out together, there was a need for me to be in his arms, in within his distance. It was suffocating, though my smses was worse. He never liked the way I handled OUR relationship and neither did I enjoyed the way he handled me, as if I was his toy. He dumped me (if I am correct), and we are just friends ever since. The name of this guy? Make a guess or just ask me. :D
Ah-hah, the last guy. The guy who really took me like a pathetic fool. Sadly, I am much smarter than he is. We were in a relationship for a while, when he began ignoring my smses and calls. Slowly, I realised, I wasn’t the only girl in his life. Damn, stealing boyfriends ain’t my cup of tea, baby. *shrugs* I saw photos of him with a girl pecking his cheeks, when I confronted him, he said that was his OLDER SISTER kissing him in front of his brother-in-law! What a joke! Guys, do your OLDER SISTER ever do that to you in PUBLIC? Hmm, I, as an older sister, wouldn’t do that to my sibling/younger sister. So anyway I pretended I didn’t know anything, but secretly I was collecting information, and one day he TRULY blew it, and I BROKE UP WITH THAT S*CKER. :) (And I love the way it feels when I am SINGLE once again!)
After each relationship, I felt so bad. I felt like I was cheating on God. Imagine how many times have His words keep reflecting in my mind on why shouldn’t I date these bunch of monkeys a.k.a. s*ckers. I was stubborn, refusing to take in ANY single words of His, making me feel more IDIOTIC. Damnit, why didn’t I heed God’s words when I hear it every time, I asked myself this. I felt miserable as I was too afraid of sharing these stupid feelings that I had with friends, though I know some were truly concerned. That’s when I realised how much I am in God’s eyes, through His little actions that kept me sane all these while.
It’s all right now. (Because I have been through WORSE.)
I am fine with being single. Yes, it feels kind of, well, strange, as it is closing on to Valentine’s Day soon in less than a month, but I am happy I am single, for now. Why bother to get yourself hurt by man who only want you as merchandise, instead of a SPECIAL GIRL that you are? If a man LOVES you for who you are, will he pressure you anything, especially SEX? Come on lar, don’t joke with me. Giving up your virginity/chastity for a man like them before MARRIAGE, sucks ‘kay? It’s stupid even in the first place that you believe in HAPPILY EVER AFTER at the age of, what? 16? LOL! Happily ever after is getting married to the man of your life and staying together for better or for worse to get old and die together lar(that means you guys were together for at least half a century…?!). Aiyo, sometimes reading teenagers/people’s problems about SEX ar, want to laugh, also cannot laugh, want to cry also cannot cry. It’s silly to begin with!
But anyway girls, don’t get taken in easily by SOME boys no matter what happens, they are just some buaya-wannabe. :)
*to the boys: not to be a b*tch here, but this a girls-only entry. :)
**to that someone, I still like you after 2 years, but now it is just a wee bit. Give me sometime to get over this, okay…? :) Or maybe just a little more, cause I will see you soon. :) And I will prove to you I am better than you think with my achievements.
***and YES!!!! I ISH FINALLY A SINGLISH USER!!! Or somewhere along that line or two…
****to the adults: don’t kill me for this entry, just needed to share some stuff with teenagers who might be reading my entries.
God, I really thank You for being there for me all these while, though there were times I knew You were very disappointed, especially at the boys I dated before. But God, please give me more of Your wisdom, Your sight, so I do not get taken in easily again. You knew somehow, how much this crush means to me in a way, so teach me to get over this. I need this, cause sometimes it kills me to sms him, I am just being Your silly little girl now… >_<>
Labels: 2009, boys, girls, relationships, reliefed, sex, sharing, SHOCK, why hermoine
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