1. What did you do in 2008 that you'd never done before?
Probably doing just 1 *pathetic* shoot?

2 Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
this year - never make resolution
next year - posted on blogspot/LJ/yam blog

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
no

4. Did anyone close to you die?
Great grandma, grand uncle and korkor

5. What countries did you visit?
Malaysia - MAlacca

6. What would you like to have in 2009 that you lacked in 2008?
To find peace with my inner-self

7. What date from 2008 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
Probably the day I went to TSRS for interview? :D

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Being in a PR department as an Intern

9. What was your biggest failure?
...

10.Did you suffer illness or injury?
Sprained my ankles - both ankles btw! Rofl!

11.What was the best thing you bought?
A top for myself? I have never/rarely get smthg for myself... (other than costumes)

12.Whose behavior merited celebration?
Caroline, Maria. :D

13.Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
hmm, if you read my blogspot entries you will have at least the faintest idea. :D

14.Where did most of your money go?
cosplay, family, myself, cosmetics, i guess that's all?

15.What did you get really, really, really excited about?
starting a business with a good friend!

16.What song will always remind you of 2008?
LAy All Your Love On Me by Amanda Seyfrield from Mamma Mia movie

17.Compared to this time last year, are you happier or sadder?
HAPPIER! *grins*

18.What do you wish you'd done more of?
spend more time with family and friends

19.What do you wish you'd done less of?
cosplay - it's an addiction >_<

20.How did you be spend Christmas?
...

22.Did you fall in love in 2008?
a crush, i guess?

23.How many one-night stands?
...

24.What was your favorite TV program?
...

25.Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
make a guess! :D

26.What was the best book you read?
Nineteen Minutes by Jodi Picoult

27.What was your greatest musical discovery?
I STILL LOVE ABBA SONGS AFTER 5 YEARS?!

28.What did you want and get?
JESSE MCCARTNEY's 'Departure' album. XD

29.What did you want and not get?
a boyfriend? rofl!

30.What was your favorite film of this year?
hmm, didn't really watch much!

31.What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
am 18, hmm, celebrated at home?

32.What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
finding more meaningful stuff to do. :D

33.How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2008?
venturing out...?

34.What kept you sane?
Daniel Radcliffe, Jesse Mccartney, Alan Rickman and that 'guy'. *blushes*

35.Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Still the 3 guys mentioned above. :D

36.What political issue stirred you the most?
Obama won!

37.Who did you miss?
My Mr Chunky, Meimei (both human and hamster). :D

38.Who was the best new person you met?
~

39.Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2008:
Becoming better than YOU.

I will achieve more than you do. I will be better than you. I will still be the BEST.

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:



Jesse McCartney Lyrics
That Was Then Lyrics

Labels: crush, summing up, that was then

给权怡凤的fan’s letter:

说老实的, 我好喜欢看您的节目. 自从您从Channel 8 搬到Channel U. (<- 2004是吗?)

因为您, 我总数懂得怎么乐观的看待自己. 也懂得怎么用另外一个角度看待我的生命.

以前, 本地的观众都不喜欢您的节目, 连我也一样. 不认识您的人都对都没好感. 可是您却没那样的放弃. 从中, 我学习到您的perseverance.

您也很耐心地等, 幸好您在2004左右就搬去Channel U 了. 我为您感到很快乐. Channel U里头的人都很照顾您, 没放弃过您. 让您慢慢的成长.

虽然您将要和他离婚了, 可是请不要放弃您的人生, 我会默默地支持您的!

您在心晴大动员时, 您和李铭顺很用心地为他们改造他们的屋子, 有时我好想写封e-mail给你们, 想知道你们的想法,还有你们是怎么耐过这些难关, 因为当我在看这个节目时, 眼睛不知这么了, 不短的流眼泪, 想个不见妈妈的小孩子. 我也感到心疼, 因为我们有时忽略了他们.

虽然是迟了点, 可是我想恭喜您和郭亮拿到亞洲電視大獎2008 - 最佳主持人奖! :D

希望能在近来的年看到更多您的节目! 也当然, 要加油哦! 我会永远的支持您的!

Labels: fans, idol, 权怡凤

Labels: actor, adoration, alan rickman, british, crush, harry potter, love, lurve, severus snape

vous étiez trop.

vous pensez que vous me connaissait, après 3 ans.

non, vous n'avez pas du tout.

vous n'avez jamais pris aucune initiative.

vous vous attendiez d'autres à le faire.

triste de vous dire ...

elle ne fonctionne pas de cette façon dans une relation.

que ce soit l'amitié, la famille ou même entre amants.

vous ne pouvez même pas différencier ce qui est l'amour, ce que l'adoration?


si elle me prend de vous dire off

je le ferai.

Labels: french

Labels: 2008, festive, jesse mccartney, merry christmas, occasions

Labels: bless, blessed, quotes, words of wisdom

hello~

amelia/suki.luna/JAWS here~ I have officially changed my handphone/cell number. I would appreciate if friends could drop me an email with YOUR handphone number for updates!

sankyuu!

LURVE
TEH' AWESOME JAWS

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got tagged by dmsasaki-chan~

#1 The first person who tag in your blog is?
hmm, a long time ago, can't recall who was it ay...

#2 Your relationship with him/her?
...

#3 Your impression of him/her?
...

#4 The most memorable thing he/she had done for u?
...

#5 The most memorable thing he/she said to you?
...

#6 If he/she become your lover you will
...

#7 If he/she become you lover, thing he/she has to improve will be
...

#8 If he/she become your enemy, you will?
...

#9 If he/she become your enemy, the reason will be?
...

#10 The most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is?
...

#11 Your overall impression of him/her is?
...

#12 How you think people around you feel about you?
"Wah lao/kao, this girl very the OPEN."

#13 The characters that you love yourself are
friendly

#14 On the the contrary, you hate yourself are?
impatience (same as dmsasaki)

#15 The most ideal person you want to be is?
me, myself and i

#16 For people that care and like you, say smth to them?
"Thanks for being a part of my life."

#17 Pass this quiz to 10 persons that you wished to know how they feel about you. Pass to people with blogs only.

1. sunarti

2. amanda

3. naomi

4. shuhadah

5. syuhaidah

6. wenjin

7. weitin

8. maya

9. yoshimotto datte

10. anyone else who wanna do~

#18 Who is no.6 having relationship with?
no1, i guess...?

#19 Is no.9 a male or female?
male desu~ he's my aniki!

#20 If 7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?
...

#21 What is no. 2 studying about?
higher nitec in hospitality operations

#22 When was the last time you had a chat with no. 3?
3 days back

#23 What kind of music band does no. 8 like?
rihanna's songs! XD

#24 Does no. 1 has any siblings?
yes!

#25 Will you woo no. 3?
she's like a sister to me! *and i'm not lesbian~*

#26 How abt no. 7?
she's still a girl! >,<

Labels: handphone, updates

Anybody made his or her resolutions (of course to keep) for 2009 yet? I’ve just did mine!

2009 Resolutions by TEH’ AWESOME JAWS

To ‘move’ around more.
To finish a couple more costumes before leaving.
To advance further in Singapore’s Education System
To learn a new language
To read more books
To be more neat and tidy
To fly overseas.
To spend more times with people who truly care for my well-being.
To fall in love with GOD all over again.
To smile at the past and move on.

To ‘move’ around more: Gosh, I gained a couple of kilos since late 2007! I resolute to jog more, exercise more, to lose those ugly tyres around my waist. And also to consume less chocolates. (I love CHOCOLATES!!!)

To finish a couple more costumes before leaving: Well, I think I’m really done with it. It was nice knowing a couple of friends whom I have known for, let’s see, maybe 4 years or even more? I’m beginning to find my work more interesting, (though not saying that cosplaying ain’t interesting) but I guess, I have found my focus. My focus in PR, in the hospitality industry.

To advance further in Singapore’s Education System: Following my last point, I have begun to find my calling in PR, in the hospitality industry. Though it might not have been expected, especially when I started Higher NITEC in Hospitality Operation, I do thank God for opening doors to places I have not expected myself to be in. I could have been stuck in the Hospitality Industry’s frontline, advancing even slower than others due to qualification difference. I will strive on in here, no matter how difficult it maybe.

To learn a new language: I was lucky to be exposed to the Paul Bocuse’s culinary students early this year, as they were on an exchange programme with our college. The night before the tour in Singapore, I went to look for books that taught French in the simplest way, hoping it will bridge the French students and us closer. And guess what? I found French language an interesting language! (Though I am still lost at the part you pronounce the word like you have loads of saliva in your mouth.) I should probably go online to search for French software, that teaches you how to speak, read, write and behave like a French (nah, just joking about the last part.)

To read more books: Yes, I have already read at least 20 books this year, but do you think I can be bothered by that amount? I shall set for myself a challenge to read more than before, to gain more knowledge and wisdom. The world is larger than you think, babe/dude. (I’ve already read almost the entire collection of Jodi Picoiult’s novels; I’ll probably pick up books by Jane Austen or William Shakespeares, just pray that I’ll not fall sleep reading or listening to the podcasts.)

To be more neat and tidy: Argh, my room/bed/table/desk/workspace is a total mess. A messy workplace equates to a messy person also equating to a messy mind. I will have to work harder on this bad habit of mine.

To fly overseas: I had wish of flying overseas to backpack, but I guess I ain’t ready for such huge responsibility yet. But I do wish I can fly overseas, just to totally recharge myself, it has been a long journey, probably to the US or something.

To spend more times with people who truly care for my well-being: Like what I said in the last point, it has been a long and tiring year for me, as many things had happened, whether I like it or not. I wish to spend more time with my love ones, like my mum, my sister, Caroline, otou-san, QinYing, Kit, Jacqueline, roxas80, my S&M team, ECM group, kak Sue, ‘Da Jie’ and some other people I have not named here. I thank you guys for being a part of life, be it for the good and the bad times. Some of us probably even share a friendship since Primary school! I can’t thank you guys enough for what some of you guys have done for me.

*Especially this very good friend, which I am now working closely together in a business venture. (You know who you are! XD)

**If you find yourself not in the list, you probably did something that I didn’t like, or just I’m just plain lazy to name every single names here, I wrote of names of friends who are the first to pop-up in my mind.

To fall in love with GOD all over again: I’m not a very good Christian to begin with, as I have neglected not only my church but also God. In a way, at the beginning of this year (or even late last year) I felt that God had not been a part of my life, I felt that He had left me alone, to take the sufferings up on my own, especially a couple of friends who had forsaken me, though we had known each others for years. School was a b*tch at that time, as politics were going on strongly in class and things, well, they weren’t like they used to be. But after starting IA, I began to realised God’s presence again, like He never had left me like I thought so. And I was doing some spring-cleaning days before, I chance upon my Bible and my other church materials again. I do want God to teach me how to fall in LOVE with him all over again, though the guilt’s killing me. So, God, can you teach me to do so again with Your LOVE?

To smile at the past and move on: I need a change in my life, a change even greater than this year’s. Because I am so over about certain things, certain feelings, certain people. I am not going to waste time waiting, let me make the move first. I am going to be even stronger than before, I am going to prove people wrong about the certain stigma they had attached me before.

If it means cropping my hair real short for this change, I’ll do so.
If it means changing the way I dress, I’ll do so.
If it means changing my contact number, I’ll do so.
If it means not giving you my new number, I’ll do so.
If it means you’re mad at me, I’ll do so.
If it means we’re over, I’ll do so.

Because seriously, do you think ever deserve all these in the first place?
Oh yeah, you do. *snorts*


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So what’s your resolution for 2009?

Labels: 2009, resolutions

Mr Leonard Tan have already came down to the resort, to check whether are we still ALIVE after 3 months being in the beautiful, yet stressful place. XD

and
guess
what?

I FEEL MORE ENCOURAGED THAN EVER!!!
*though my logbook comments are like shit. serious, real shit.*

The Director of HR even mentioned that I might be offered a place by my Director of Sales, looking at my performance in the company.

*OMG! OMG! OMG!*
**Though it'll be nice if they could sponsor me studying Mass Comm after IA**
*** And, YES. I'll have a BOND with the RESORT then."

---That's why I say I AM BETTER THAN YOU ARE.---

God, please give me the wisdom to kicka**. XD

Amen.

*Because I know I'm better than those who have hurt me.

"B*tch, wtf is wrong with you?!" <--- THIS IS FOR SOMEONE IN PARTICULAR.

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Dear All

suki.luna will not be in town for the next 2 days. Anything just drop her an email/sms. She'll get back to you ASAP.

many thanks
TEH' AWESOME JAWS

20 Facts about the suki.luna/Amelia/JAWS you never known about…
(not in any chronological order)

1. She ADORES BL a lot. *Check her hard-drive/thumbdrive for evidence*
2. She is studying in a Hospitality course. *that’s where the nick JAWS came from*
3. She always carry a torch on guys for at least a year.
4. She does photography whenever she feels like it. *or when friends request*
5. She began reading ever since she was a wee child. *Started with books from Enid Blyton then to Nancy Drew and now Jodi Picoult, Mitch Albom*
6. She was thrown into the world of Cosplay in 2002, when she was only Primary 6. *That was when she started knowing some of the older generation cosplayers. She wouldn’t name who though.*
7. She had her blogspot blog since Secondary 4, out of boredom, her livejournal blog at the end of Secondary 4, so she can read her friends’ posts at LJ and her yam(Chinese) blog at the start of her Industrial Attachment, cause not much people know who the hell is she over there.
8. She prefers to watch and laugh at others than others to watch and laugh at her.
9. She doesn’t mind receiving Jodi Picoult’s novels, BL manga/anime/merchandises for anytime of the year. *Be it birthdays, Christmas, Valentine’s day. Just no stupid gifts like paperweight, stationeries, pencil cases etc.*
10. She has been listening to English songs more than Japanese/Anime songs since the start of 2008. *She’s now declaring her love for JESSE MCCARTNEY!!!!*
11. She sometimes get into this DARK & SEME world. *Only when she’s emo-ing*
12. She used to be part of Hougang Secondary School’s Red Cross unit. *From 2003 to 2006. She just can’t stand people not treating part of the unit. Even after graduation.*
13. She never enjoys talking about her Secondary school life. *It was dark and lonely, and she hates it.*
14. She is often attached to the family laptop including her personal harddrive.
15. She’s a total NOOB when it comes to softwares and all that. *But funny that she could do CG/DI once in a blue moon.*
16. She often refers her guy friends as her sisters.
17. She thinks the color RED is real cool/hot. *Influenced by her younger sister*
18. She is still waiting for her Prince Charming. *Romeo, Romeo, where for art thou Romeo?*
19. And hell yes, she’s still lost when it comes to Shakespeare’s Romeo & Juliet play. *She needs to be diligent when listening to podcasts for the play!!!!*
20. She has just realized she had reached to the 20th fact about her all-so-insane life.

Can you beat that? XD

Labels: HPO, not looking, over you, p*ssed, ruBBISH, SCREW OFF LAR

その手離さないで　離さないで
僕がそばにいるから
どんな時でも　笑って　笑って
花を咲かせてよ

君の大好きな花が咲いたよ
小さなトゲのある花が今朝咲いたよ
そのトゲで自分を守れるつもりかな
強がってばっかりの花　君みたいだね

優しさを知るほど　切なくなるんだ
君が流してきた涙の温もりと知ってから

君に会いたくて　会いたくて
二人でいればいるほど　寂しくなるなら
寂しくなくなるまで手を繋ごう
その手離さないで　離さないで
僕がそばにいるから
どんな時でも　笑って　笑って
花を咲かせてよ

君がどっかの星に微笑みかけるなら
空を見上げるだけで　幸せになるんだ

何気ないことも　愛しく思うのは
君という名の花が　この胸に咲いたから

君に会いたくて　会いたくて
二人でいればいるほど　寂しくなるなら
寂しくなくなるまで手を繋ごう
その手離さないで　離さないで
僕がそばにいるよ
どんな時でも　笑って　泣いてあげるから
そばにいて

水をあげなきゃ　枯れてしまうから
そんなトゲじゃ何も　守れないよ
強がってばっかりの花なんだ
そのトゲで傷つかないね　そんなにもう泣かないで

その手離さないよ　離さないよ
二人でいればいるほど　寂しくなるなら
寂しくなくなるまで手を繋ごう
小さなそのトゲで僕の手をたとえ傷つけても

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I need to be alone for now.

Too much thoughts in my mind now.

DO YOU THINK I F*CKING CARE?!

Mood: Cheery
Listening: 君＝花 by pigstar of 純情ロマンチカ

yuki宝贝influenced me into 純情ロマンチカ!
(english title: Junjou Romantica:Pure Romance)


鈴木さん~ Isn't this bear kawaii? XD (Btw, it cost 15,000 円 = SGD 246.444 ;_;)

I'm hoping to watch/read the entire series ASAP, cause it just too good to resist... *cries even more* but why did my computer NOT play the videos at all? even after yuki宝贝 send me her version of the BLripped videos....

sigh. i'll just read the manga first then...

*p.s. huifen, you might want to give this series a go, watch it! XD
**yuki宝贝, can't wait to pair up for this series!!! *licks yuki宝贝*
***SEME mood, ON!!!

Labels: BL, boy's love, Junjou Romantica, yaoi