listening: UMBRELLA - Rihanna
mood: gosh. do i have to talk about this...?

bleHX. something MAJOR happened b/w me and my son. blEHX. don't wanna talk about it.

i just finished reading "Keeping Faith" by Jodi Picoult. This novel is about this lady, Mariah White and her daughter Faith White. When Mariah found her husband cheating on her and her daughter, her world just basically was hanging on its strings. Faith starts to her voices, recites biblical passages etc etc. both of them starts to get strapped in the media's eyes. Mariah would have to start to stand on her own two feet...

whoa. i nearly cried when i was reading the book... gosh. i just LURVE this author's way of writing. it's not like some other author, always writing about love, love and love. can't they write something else instead...? it's just so touching, it'll just take you away into their crazy world. you can see how confused is everyone. you will feel the helplessness of Mariah. anyway, i'm thinking of getting this book...

at times, human beings get lost in their direction, though they have a map, do you agree on this...? i 'm still LOST, unlike some people who think that they are real PERFECT. (try me, i'll BITE) i STRIVE for PERFECTION, and i'm not afraid to say so. i make mistakes like any other human beings too, don't you?

i b*tch. i swear. i curse. i bite.

well, life ain't fair, i'm trying to get through with fears that i have. enough with crying already. enough with anger already. enough with all the sh*t you give me.

if people hurt you, you hurt them back, is it right?
if people curse and swears at your face, do you curse and swear back all the same?
gosh, if you do that. blEHx. you're DAMNED immature.
and i don't mind saying that again, "YOU'RE IMMATURE".

i will do my best, by staying close to that person who's hurting me. everyone does something for a reason, don't they? i'll stay by, stay close... i'll not leave that person alone, because i know how it feels to be alone. no one likes being alone, i can swear on this.

at times, i feel like i'm really like Severus Snape. well, he often pushes people away, those who cares for them too. we're ALOOF at times. yup, ALOOF.

at times, i don't really know whether have i trusted the right person, with the appropriate things... it's the trust at stake now... faith too...

how do you keep having FAITH, when people you love, you care, you trust, are being ________ towards you? how do you do so...? do you wait or you try your 'luck'? gosh.

i don't know. i really don't know.

he saved others; himself he cannot save. - MATTHEW 27:42

Labels: afterthoughts, directions, ITE, jodi picoult, lost, MAJOR, what about maturity

watching: diana - last day of a princess
mood: real DISSAPOINTED.

gaah. was on the phone with qinying just now. was talking to her about a costume request that happened a few months back. well, i actually commisioned SOMEONE, i'll call the person 'rose' in this case. i wanted 'rose' to do a 'unknown' dress for me. and rose did. but you know...? it was SECOND-HAND!!!! rose could have told me in the first place...! and 'rose' also promised me to do another pants for free...! but now, i haven't got any... >,< just so dissapointed with 'rose'...

my class got assigned to do an extra credit project wor... problem, is there are not much information about the people we are supposed to search for... >,< aiyo. must work harder ne...

i'm craving for... KIMCHI...!!!!! XD

Labels: 'rose', dissapointed, extra credit project, hospitality operations

listening: 'O Sole Mio by lisa ono
mood: lalalala~

was looking at yean's LJ, when i saw her entry writing about me and curs commenting that she look like nymphadora tonks... hai, hai. you really look like her, though you're sooooo like harry ne... XD really ma... though it'll be cool if she could join the team back , as nymphadora tonks ne.

yeanling>> bleh. i want you as my LILY POTTER!!!! i'll GLOMP EUUU IF YOU DON'T....!!!!! *growl*

i'm thinkgin of organising a photoshoot soon wor. cause kind of bored liao. wakaka. but cosplay as who leh...? hmmm... maybe i'll ask someone to lend costume or smthg ba.. hahaX. i just hope that i can pull off the character right, if not OOC wor. *sigh*

my next cosplay in mind, is actually card captor sakura de shool uniform...! XD heheX. hmm. maybe as sakura, if not i'll cosplay as eriol hiiragizawa...! whee~~~ *excited* fallen in love with this anime almost 5 to 6 years ago wor, i practically grew up with it...! hahaX. but i'm looking for people to accompany me leh... if not, like soodd liddat.

hmm... i tink i better write more later. see ya. XD

listening: sexyback by justin timberlake
mood: relieved...

yes!!!! i'm finally done with my oral's...!!!!! hahaX. the passage, picture discussion and conversation was mainly about the environment ne...! whoa...! it was pretty easy during the conversation but not during the picture discussion. i'll simply fLUNK the picture discussion ar... i basically just sat there, crapping about i-don't-know-what-the-heck-i'm-talking about, even the examiners kind of like blur too... argh... >,<

>>i'm over you already. please stop reminding me about what we did that day. it was a STUPID mistake on my part. i'm going to move on with my life. please do so on your part. thank you.<<

currently 'm reading/going ga-ga over this 2 fanfics, "the marriage stone" by josephine darcy and "will you please stay with me?" by XmissfreestyleX. harry +severus pairing are cute, okay... XD

gosh. he knows my name already... argh... why the f*ck didn't i hit my head against the wall after the service conference last week...? why did i not do that...!!!! *growl* i'll kill someone later than...

teacher's day is coming soon... *sigh* what should i get them....? roses...? cups...? books...? pens...? anymore ideas....? gaah... i'm on a bl**Dy f*cking bUDGET....!!!!!!

Labels: afterthoughts, fanfics, harry + sevvy, hospitality operations, reliefed

listening: what if God was One of Us - Joan Osbourne
mooD: erm... nervous... >,<

okay, okay. i'm going to have my o level's oral later. just hope i won't talk crap halfway... >,<

*sigh* maybe i'll talk more later.... no mood sia... >,<

guess what...?

suki.luna's HARRY POTTER!!!!! XD

Find out your Harry Potter personality at LiquidGeneration!

hahaX. managed to see most of the pics that were taken last month during a certain event... yup, i went as luna lovegood! XD because there was already a harry, and anyway, i'm obsessed with luna lovegood at the moment...! hahaX. she's cute ne~~~

took this pic like last month liddat, before i returned emina her lolita wor... XD aiyo, i look so differnt sia... >,< but i was thinking of really investing in one proper lolita piece of myown, but i dun want too expensive de... *sigh* anyone got a simple and nice de ma...? i wanna buy sia...

princess>> XD whee~~~~ food! food! food!

Labels: harry potter, lolita, luna lovegood

listening: thanks for the memories - fall out boy
mood: *grins*

we're finally done with the service conference...!!! imagine you have to sing the "hero" song by mariah carey almost everyday, whoa, if you ain't sick of it, i am...!!! i actually replaced kushpu (correct spelling?) as the mini emcee, to be truthful, i feel kind of guilty... >,< real DAMN guilty, though she assured me/said it was alright...

...I'm gonna make you bend and break
(It sent you to me without wings)
Say a prayer but let the good times roll
In case God doesn't show
(Let the good times roll, let the good times roll)
And I want these words to make things right
But it's the wrongs that make the words come to life
"Who does he think he is?"
If that's the worst you got
Better put your fingers back to the keys...

but everyone enjoyed it...! the audiences were impressed with us...! even poly lecturers...! oh my...! and i saw azizu! he's actually in CEMTA dance group. what a surprise, after not seeing him for almost 2 years! even my classmates were shcok to see such a dancer...! hahaX. when it ended, me and princess (ancherle~) were like screaming for food, as there was a buffet outside...! food! food! hahaX. we were like hungry ghost liddat.... XD

...One night and one more time
Thanks for the memories
even though they weren't so great
"He tastes like you only sweeter"
One night, yeah, and one more time
Thanks for the memories, thanks for the memories
"He, he tastes like you only sweeter"...

watched the "king and i" yesterday! wow! superb! my mum got the ticket for free from negara on claymore hotel, because the company that she works for, kept giving the hotel customers, so to thank the company, or rather, thank my mum and the rest of their loyal customers, they decided to sponsor them tickets to the "king and i" play at the ESPLANADE theatre...! and i saw timothy go from CNA!!!! i felt like a country bumpkin there though, cause i wasn't really in those evenig gowns, high heels (i walk like ET in those bl**dy eff-ing shoes..) or look that freaking presentable... gosh... felt so out of place there... >,< gaah~

in total i rate the "king and i", 3.5 stars over 5 stars. well, as you know they actually had the movie screened on tV before, so i pretty much expected slightly more from the play. but what was pretty cool was the scene where the princess (the gift from burma) was reciting about the story of a women who escaped from her master, becuase she wanted to return back to her family and her lover/boyfriend. the king was pretty hilarious at times, especially when he says something and he goes, "...etc, etc, etc..". the audiences were laughing of their seats...! hahaX.

...They say I only think in the form of crunching numbers
In hotel rooms collecting page six lovers
Get me out of my mind and get you out of those clothes
I'm a liner away from getting you into the mood, whoa...

well, this week was an eventful week...! XD
rest well, minna-san!

Labels: afterthoughts, hospitality operations, ITE, memories, the king and i

listening: Danny Boy - Lisa Ono
mood: ...

my grandfather has just passed away this morning. my mum woke me up, and just suddenly announced to me and my sister, that he passed on.

to me, i'm not sad 'cause God has taken him to heaven, a place where he'll not suffer any longer... i sound bad, cause it's true. when you're on your deathbed, do you want people to mourn over you, to be sad everyday. it hurts. we gotta smile and move on, not stumble and wait for someone to offer a hand.

...and if you come, when all the flowers are dying
and i am dead as dead i well may be
you'll come and find the place where i am lying
and kneel and say an "Ave" there for me...

hush, hush. tears fall as they should, i'll not stop. but promise me, that you'll want me by your side, for i shall be the one who'll sweep your tears away, promise me this okay...? i will not hurt you like what the others did, shh... (damn, why does it sound like a guy professing his undying lurve...?!)

hush, hush. the tears shall end for now. hush, hush.

listening: do you know (the ping pong song) - enrique iglesias
mood: BETTER THAN EVER!

...Do you know what it feels like
loving someone that's in a rush to throw you away.
(Do you know)
Do you know what it feels like
to be the last one to know the lock on the door has changed...

wow. i like this song by enrique iglesias... damn, nice... he also has a hot body ne... hahaX.

...If birds flying south is a sign of changes
At least you can predict this every year.
Love, you never know the minute it ends suddenly
I can't get it to speak
Maybe finding all the things it took to save us
I could fix the pain that bleeds inside of me
Look in your eyes to see something about me
I'm standing on the edge and I don't know what else to give....

lines of words that you see in my previous blog entries, are actually lines of lyrics... i can actually see images in my mind, when i'm actually listeing to songs... that's why i like to put them in my entries... it actually supports my mood and feeling...

...I flow through my act
The question is she needed
And decide all the man I can ever be.
Looking at the last 3 years like I did...

there's a lot of thigns that are happening in class. emotions are stirred. feelings are hurt. ego is on the boost. gosh. just STOP IT, will 'ya?!

As people act, so they become.

listening: sul cocuzzolo - lisa ono
mood: EMO, again. >,<

*stares at screen* lots of things have happened recently ne... shh... will only say little stuff about THOSE stuff.

Hougang Sec was on TV on 3th August! yahoo! XD hahaX. i was watching the news on channel 8, when i saw my ex-principal commenting about the integration of special & express stream. yahoo for HOUGANG SECONDARY! XD

everyone hears what you say
friends listen to what you say
good friends listen to what you don't say

isn't it true...?

i went to the toa payoh photo gallery, also on saturday too. i am so IMPRESSED by the photographers! imagine how long they took, just to get that PERFECT shot! i don feel the pain too, cause i did that once, but it did paid off. XD it's real INSPIRING...!

'when you let love guide your actions, you start to tread the path that leads towards contentment'

true. love does tred its way through our hearts, leaving us feeling for satisfied. love is ALWAYS much stronger than hatred, it's so PROVEN in the HARRY POTTER series ne! love is the bEST you'll ever receive from anyone!

like a lake is always full
the heart of a kind person is always filled with love

Labels: afterthoughts, change, harry potter, lisa ono, love, memories, more than words

#1 - i'm GOING to SERIOUSLY get over that JERK. yeah, one usless crap on earth, corrupts the environment. yes, they do. f*ck euu.

#2 - i'm in contact with 2 of my secondary school teachers again! XD hahaX. after don't know how many DONKEY months since i've contacted them. hahaX. just hope i ain't too late.

#3 - i wanna read more novels!!!! i want to read more books ne, but like not much nice one to read, especially mangas. sheesh, standards have went down ne.

#4 - *sigh* i'm tired, i need my sleep.

Labels: bleh, FUCK YOU, grown up, hurts, memories, more than words, time