Did I ever say it was YOU? :)

Please tell me which blog of mine did you chance upon on.

oh wait, it was my LJ you're reading...!!!!!! 8D


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Don't you dare make me shoot you down with every single word you wrote, you are contradicting yourself.

Labels: 2009, believing, HK, HPO, i am prettier than you, indifferent, ITE, the end

my dear 'friend'/whoever/anonymous-shitface,

could you at least use a name when commenting on my blog entry?! 8D

be a brave little girl/boy/human-beings...! \o/

Do I even know you in the first place?
Why are you even calling me by a nick my OTHER friends call me by? :D

link: http://suki-luna.livejournal.com/65701.html

whoever-this-random-babe/dude-is reply:

"hi suki, i think he lost his way when he was with his class, his groupie. it was a whole lot of bad influence that was pulling him all the way to the negative side. he may look happy to you on the outside yes. but on the inside, you never know how bad and dark his soul has already been affected. all mainly because of the type of friends he had. You see, good friends respect one another. Respect doesn't only mean say thank you or not being rude. But respect means you don't say crude remarks about your friend's gf/bf. You don't tell your friend to turn your back on his partner. Thats not respect. Friends don't share videos of sexual acts and encourage each other. Friends don't go around to Geylang to look at those prostitutes. If thats what you call friends, I think its better not to have those kind of friends right? I am not saying its you. im saying his mates. good friends should respect one anothers gf bf and respect each others religion. and good friends don't talk dirty about their sex life openly. thats confidential don't you agree? See, thats why he started pulling away from you people. Cos he realised its making his soul unclean. Please dont take it to heart, i am not directing this to you. i am just trying to explain to you the reason for his departure from the class.

Thanks. "

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Read this:

"Get this fact into your brain.

My dearest friend, I have never gave up on you.

It was you who did so....! Our friendship...!

You changed your number, no one knew where you fucking are anymore....!
*Guess what? You want me to STALK you? 8D

Ask yourself this question, who were the ones who actually did this sexual talk?
Did the girls from Kitchenette and SGA do so? What about me?

If we did, I'm probably screwing one of the girls happily, or maybe you if I'm/was desperate. 8D

Ask yourself another question, who went to ask KAK which Hotel 81 to go to?
Please do not pretend I did not see you asking her for "ADVICE", what a hypocrite.

Remember to use a condom, my friend! \o/"

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To my dearest bibik~

Your comment is real appreciated...!!!!! >_< thank you!

"Ahh. Amelia, this guy was once the talent of the class. Surely he did impacted the class in one ways or another and I am so very sure why you'd miss him even after he "disappeared" for probably various reasons.

Gees, I didn't know the class has causes the guy's soul to bet dirty. Maybe 'cause the class sing and cheered too much. Or maybe because the classmates are just being normal teenagers whose curiosity outshines every other aspects. Oh boy, Amelia. Its sad that this had to happen. The once cheerful (oh well, sadly no one knows that hes sad inside) guy has changed for the better is some other funny way.

-

Itsokay, The rest is still there for you, no matter what. "

gosh! thank you so much....!!!!!!!!!!!! >_<

Labels: 2009, friends, grown up, HK, HPO, i am prettier than you, ITE, letters to..., life, more than words, sarcasm with love, SEXYBACK, whatever, why hermoine

to my dearest buddy

Dear Danial Triadi Yusof



I miss you. *This picture was taken during one of our Class Annual Car Wash Drive.




You were my buddy, my closest friend way back when we were still a Year 1 student in the Higher NITEC of Hospitality Operations, in 2007.




You knew I had to change, and you were there to guide me through it, through the pain and hurt. Didn't you realised how much you had impacted me ever since...? :(




You were sad, and I was there for you. I was sad, and you did the same too.




We made stupid jokes and made a fool of ourselves, but we were still happy people.




You encouraged me all these while, though there was once we both lost our cool.




But slowly through the months, it seemed as if I, no it's we, have lost you along the way. Like as if you fell through the cracks when we didn't had our eyes on you.




My dearest buddy, Danial Triadi Yusof, I miss you, so does everyone from our class HA/HK.




I was hoping I could see you for the last time before everyone else's go their own ways.
I was hoping we could all share our last laughter during the ceremony.
I was hoping we would smile and wink at each other, with the mischevious sparkles in our eyes.



But apparently, it did not happened.
You, my dear friend, you weren't there to witness it all.




It felt so odd, after that, like the story wasn't completed, a fullstop that went missing after the comma, the book without the cover.




I am beginning to feel the emptiness now, your presence.




I would really hope to talk to you soon, to catch up with you soon.




Your Sincerely
The AWESOME JAWS* WHO MISSES HER BUDDY.

Labels: 2009, friends, hospitality operations, HPO, ITE, life, STALK, taking a step, thanks, that was then, to-do list

Listening: Tell Her by Jesse Mccartney
Mood: Sad :(

I have rarely writen this much on my blog, I noticed after penning all this while having slight insomnia.

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There are people I know who write truthfully about their feelings, yet others write about their life so vaguely, that you can’t even see the ripples in the water. I admire those who really write with their heart.

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There are people who will be part of your life because they have made an impact on you, there are others who might mean something to you now, but they won’t in the future.

They are people I used to think I know them until things happened, then I realised, they were actually blind all these while, like those blind rats/mice you used to sing about when you were still in nursery/kindergarten/primary school(s). They were so blind that they get so absorb with what they think will make them happy, isn’t it sad? After it is what they THINK that makes them happy.

Through these years, since secondary school, I learned to grow up without my so-called friends and the adults that I used to befriend when I was still in FCBC. They lie to you that they will ALWAYS be there for you, but in actual fact they leave without a trace, expecting you to pick up after them.

There was a group of friends whom I thought was really my friend due to an amount of time we knew each other, but things happened yet they do not want to open their eyes to see. We are all over already, I did what I can to care for you as a friend, as a sister, as a mother, as a lover, but you threw it aside, not me as simple as that.

I wouldn’t really say that it was a real sad time then, because I knew it was God’s test on me, on my patience, my sanity, my mind, my life.

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During the 4 years in HS, some teachers perish yet the others perserved. There were people whom I thought was my friend, but in actual fact they were a wolf in sheep’s clothing. People whom I’ve trusted and others whom I also gave up on. And slowly I grew up though I couldn’t see myself any longer, I was lost like them too.

There are things I need to work out on my own, like my loyalty to God, after what happened when I was in church. It was something I couldn’t really believe that would happened to me 3 times under the same network, that it depressed me for over a period of time.

Was it the Devil’s doing or was it God’s will that I leave this church?
I do hope it is the latter.

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‘O’ levels came and went, and I was finally an ITE student, doing my Higher NITEC in Hospitality Operations. It was sad though, as I was the only HS student in class/campus, the wound was still fresh and I was real paranoid.

There was a point I wanted to give up just like some other students who have left our class, but I told, or I shall say, rudely reminded myself,

“Amelia, don’t be stupid. There are people out there who are fighting for this place, and you’re just going to give up just like this?! Don’t be stupid, girl. You, yourself, said that this is what you are REALLY interested in and you said that you will prove certain people wrong about yourself. So you better not give up…!”

Slowly I got to know of people who love me and hate me.
There were people who were willing to be true, and there were others who weren’t as real as they think.
There were people who made and break me too.

We learned together, we worked together, we fought together.

Love was exchanged, battles were won and lost, friendship grew stronger and weaker in the meantime.

We spent 1 1/2 years together, irritating and loving everyone to the core, camwhoring like no one’s business, cheered like we have never been before.

Things I keep seeing in my mind when I close my eyes:
Michael’s class cheer, Maya as our Rihanna, Nelly’s ‘singing’, Weitin’s participation in World Skills making us so proud of her, Sunarti saying, “JAWS, shuddup lar.” with that cheeky grin on her face, the nasi padang I patronised everyday with kak Sue, Ahda as the very cheerful girl no matter what happens, huifen as my manga partner, kade who will always call me “Dewgong”, there are loads I couldn’t finish describing here without tearing up and crying like a baby.

I seriously miss the times we all have together. I never thought 1 1/2 years would go by so fast in just a blink of an eye.

To those people who laugh at me, and others who laugh with me all these while.
I love you.

HPO, you have made the impact that I can never imagined happening.

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Graduation day will be happening in 1 week’s time or so.
I get emotional when I think of it as our last time together as a class.
Tears will definitely cling on me as we hug each other for the last time before we all go our separate ways, some to school, some to work and others to NS.

It might be impossible, yet it might happened if we made the effort. Please, let us all stay in contact, via smses, phonecalls, blogging, facebook, and what we can get.

I won’t forget you guys.

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Note: I will leave this entry on my blog till the end of Graduation day.

*Usual updates will be on LJ


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In a little while, we will all leave together, because tonight’s the night.

Be sure to make your final bow before our exits.

Labels: 2009, don't cry, friends, hospitality operations, ITE, love, lurve ones

Mood: EXCITED
Listening: Kidnap My Heart by The Click 5

Guess what?!

I’ve just received a call from XXX, to head down for an interview this Monday! (For those who don’t know what I am talking about, too bad. XP)

I am so… So… So EXCITED!!! Immediately after the call, I gave a call to Ms Deon to inform her I ‘might’ get a place there! She said to go for it, and not hesitate to grab the place first.

After that, I called otou-san to tell him the good news. I was pretty worried too, cause we are left with very little time to get a place in the hotels. He said “Don’t worry, take it slow.” Daddy’s so sweet! XD

Later on, I sms-ed Ms Saadiah, Mr Francis and Ms Pauline. Ms Saadiah replied “Gd. Go for it.” But I still had some concerns and I told her I don’t have much confidence in convincing the HR personnel to take me as a trainee. She told me not to worry and she has confidence in me.

I also sms-ed ‘him’, cause just yesterday I was sms-ing him about my worries in the Industrial Attachment. He told me to “Jia You”.

Ms Pauline called me back at around 7pm, telling me that this would be a good place for my personality, and me as this place needs people who are versatile and positive. I did tell her my concerns, about how I felt not confident enough to convince the HR department. She assured me that I would be able to do so! She also continued saying that no matter what I am given to do, I will definitely do it. She believes in me, I guess so…

I’m going to do my BEST then!

God, give me the wisdom, so that during this interview I can ace it, and convince them to accept me as a trainee. And also give me the maturity to think through what I am going to answer during the interview, as this concerns my future as a fellow hotelier in the industry. I need confidence, bravery for this interview.

Gaah! I need my CONFIDENCE!!!

**Wanted to have a fashion photoshoot on Monday, but since got interview, hmm, I’ll postpone it to a later date…

Labels: before-thoughts, boo-yeah, directions, enjoy, final year, gaah, ganbatte, gimme, grown up, hospitality operations, HPO, hugs and lurves, ITE, JAWS, leaving, lost, MAJOR

listening: stop and stare by one republic
mood: *silently praying* GOD, LET ME HAPPY...!!!

projects are a lot (i don't believe that we have to submit them so soon...! *shriek*)
over drive manga is super COOL
PRINCESS SAKURA (in my list) IS A HARDCORE B*TCH (and i don't mean it as a compliment & never ever mention anything to me about her)
TV watching is going to be LIMITED soon
jobs-hunting a definite!
am so SINGLE (who wants a man who seriously CONSTANTLY LIES to YOU...!)
j-ROCK songs are making way into my mp3
money is definite neccesity in my life
might get a part-time job soon!
handphone not constantly with me (anything email or pm me on friendster/sgcafe)
changing blogskin soon (need to do linking first)

i wish i could seriously blog on whatever happened to me in the past 3-4 months, but honestly, am so lazy....! lol.

1. Great Grandma & Grand-Uncle passed away within one week from each other. Great-Grandma went first, then Grand-Uncle. but honestly ar, i ain't close to either of them though it seems that my great grandma is kinda nice... she passed away about 2 weeks after Chinese New Year.

2. B*tches who seriously wanna b*tch about me (especially you, PRINCESS SAKURA/SAKURA-HIME/YUZHEN), do it in my face, man... i don't like cowards okay? you want to play dirty, make sure you don't leave clues behind...! want to cat fight? i'll find a cat that is in heat and let you 'play' with it. don't SERIOUSLY try to piss me off. you wouldn't want me to do anything to you, do ya...?

3. hmm... can't remember what i wanna type le... argh...





oh yeah, i've researching on how to do latte art, since entp project last semester. damn cool, man...! probably i'll do a presentation on that during assembly. even miss deon was also curious on how professional baristas do that. lol. when i have my café's ready (ORION café), i'll go learn how to be a barista...!!! woo-hoo!!!

latte art, here i come!!!

Labels: afterthoughts, café, hurts, ITE, latte art, lurve ones, p*ssed, pfft, RANDOM, ruBBISH, screwed, SEXYBACK, SHORT-CIRCUIT, smack bUTTS, smiley faces, start business, tears, time, whatever, with lurve

mood: moo. moo. moo.
listening: Bridge to the Other Side

there's a Class Outing going on next week, argh, i'll only be returning form KL on that day ar... how??? *sigh*

i should start on my new year resolutions soon, man... maybe one for every month, how bout thaT? then i must motivate myself to do them..!!! *gosh, aren't i lazy?*

was inspired by curs' entry on her blog recently...

i miss...

GOD
CHURCh *i swear i ain't no goody 2 shoes christian*
being free!!!
some of my beloved friends i've not met for a very long time...
cosplaying as someone i can really relate myself to...
*curs, you, too... miss ya' nagging/SCOLDINGS!!!! XD*

gosh. i should really stop and take a lok around me, before i lose everything...

Labels: afterthoughts, bleh, boo-yeah, cursendra, directions, don't cry, God's LurvE, grown up, hugs and lurves, hurts, ITE, leaving, lose everything, lurve ones, sweet lurve, unrequited love, whatever

listening: When You're Gone by AVRIL LAVIGNE
mood: hmm. probably on cloud9.

i managed to 'OFFICIALLY' got to know him. pretty embarassing, though i had the help from my friends, esp Sue, Nirah'bella, Mariana, Danial, Prem and a couple more. thanks, guys. XD

... always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie is made up on your side...

he reminded so much of a friend whom i've known a very long time back, probably 3 to 4 years ago. i regretted losing that friendship with that friend, due to some family issues, really regretted it.

we took the same bus together back, as we were living quite near, and started chatting. well, he's nice...

...I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do reminds me of you
And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor
And they smell just like you, I love the things that you do

When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now...

he actually asked what if he didn't want to be in relationship, how would i feel. so i replied, "do you want the truth or you want the lies?"
he laughed, wanting the truth. i replied back...
"well, i would be disppointed, no doubt. but i'll just take it that i've gained a good friend...!"

shh, he's a wonderful guy, that's what i can say, though i would secretly pray that something good will happen from now on...



Innocent Uke
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ara, ara. suki.luna's an INNOCENT UKE...! XD

finoa>> lurve euu lots.

...All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I'd do, I'd give my heart and soul...

Labels: afterthoughts, hospitality operations, ITE, love, over you

listening: UMBRELLA - Rihanna
mood: gosh. do i have to talk about this...?

bleHX. something MAJOR happened b/w me and my son. blEHX. don't wanna talk about it.

i just finished reading "Keeping Faith" by Jodi Picoult. This novel is about this lady, Mariah White and her daughter Faith White. When Mariah found her husband cheating on her and her daughter, her world just basically was hanging on its strings. Faith starts to her voices, recites biblical passages etc etc. both of them starts to get strapped in the media's eyes. Mariah would have to start to stand on her own two feet...

whoa. i nearly cried when i was reading the book... gosh. i just LURVE this author's way of writing. it's not like some other author, always writing about love, love and love. can't they write something else instead...? it's just so touching, it'll just take you away into their crazy world. you can see how confused is everyone. you will feel the helplessness of Mariah. anyway, i'm thinking of getting this book...

at times, human beings get lost in their direction, though they have a map, do you agree on this...? i 'm still LOST, unlike some people who think that they are real PERFECT. (try me, i'll BITE) i STRIVE for PERFECTION, and i'm not afraid to say so. i make mistakes like any other human beings too, don't you?

i b*tch. i swear. i curse. i bite.

well, life ain't fair, i'm trying to get through with fears that i have. enough with crying already. enough with anger already. enough with all the sh*t you give me.

if people hurt you, you hurt them back, is it right?
if people curse and swears at your face, do you curse and swear back all the same?
gosh, if you do that. blEHx. you're DAMNED immature.
and i don't mind saying that again, "YOU'RE IMMATURE".

i will do my best, by staying close to that person who's hurting me. everyone does something for a reason, don't they? i'll stay by, stay close... i'll not leave that person alone, because i know how it feels to be alone. no one likes being alone, i can swear on this.

at times, i feel like i'm really like Severus Snape. well, he often pushes people away, those who cares for them too. we're ALOOF at times. yup, ALOOF.

at times, i don't really know whether have i trusted the right person, with the appropriate things... it's the trust at stake now... faith too...

how do you keep having FAITH, when people you love, you care, you trust, are being ________ towards you? how do you do so...? do you wait or you try your 'luck'? gosh.

i don't know. i really don't know.

he saved others; himself he cannot save. - MATTHEW 27:42

Labels: afterthoughts, directions, ITE, jodi picoult, lost, MAJOR, what about maturity

listening: thanks for the memories - fall out boy
mood: *grins*

we're finally done with the service conference...!!! imagine you have to sing the "hero" song by mariah carey almost everyday, whoa, if you ain't sick of it, i am...!!! i actually replaced kushpu (correct spelling?) as the mini emcee, to be truthful, i feel kind of guilty... >,< real DAMN guilty, though she assured me/said it was alright...

...I'm gonna make you bend and break
(It sent you to me without wings)
Say a prayer but let the good times roll
In case God doesn't show
(Let the good times roll, let the good times roll)
And I want these words to make things right
But it's the wrongs that make the words come to life
"Who does he think he is?"
If that's the worst you got
Better put your fingers back to the keys...

but everyone enjoyed it...! the audiences were impressed with us...! even poly lecturers...! oh my...! and i saw azizu! he's actually in CEMTA dance group. what a surprise, after not seeing him for almost 2 years! even my classmates were shcok to see such a dancer...! hahaX. when it ended, me and princess (ancherle~) were like screaming for food, as there was a buffet outside...! food! food! hahaX. we were like hungry ghost liddat.... XD

...One night and one more time
Thanks for the memories
even though they weren't so great
"He tastes like you only sweeter"
One night, yeah, and one more time
Thanks for the memories, thanks for the memories
"He, he tastes like you only sweeter"...

watched the "king and i" yesterday! wow! superb! my mum got the ticket for free from negara on claymore hotel, because the company that she works for, kept giving the hotel customers, so to thank the company, or rather, thank my mum and the rest of their loyal customers, they decided to sponsor them tickets to the "king and i" play at the ESPLANADE theatre...! and i saw timothy go from CNA!!!! i felt like a country bumpkin there though, cause i wasn't really in those evenig gowns, high heels (i walk like ET in those bl**dy eff-ing shoes..) or look that freaking presentable... gosh... felt so out of place there... >,< gaah~

in total i rate the "king and i", 3.5 stars over 5 stars. well, as you know they actually had the movie screened on tV before, so i pretty much expected slightly more from the play. but what was pretty cool was the scene where the princess (the gift from burma) was reciting about the story of a women who escaped from her master, becuase she wanted to return back to her family and her lover/boyfriend. the king was pretty hilarious at times, especially when he says something and he goes, "...etc, etc, etc..". the audiences were laughing of their seats...! hahaX.

...They say I only think in the form of crunching numbers
In hotel rooms collecting page six lovers
Get me out of my mind and get you out of those clothes
I'm a liner away from getting you into the mood, whoa...

well, this week was an eventful week...! XD
rest well, minna-san!

Labels: afterthoughts, hospitality operations, ITE, memories, the king and i

listening: cosa hai messo nel caffe by lisa ono
mood: up, up, we go...!

congrats to yuanie and maria for winning the WCS competition on 15th july! sorry, i did not attend the event that day due to some personal reasons. >,< but you know what? you guys are the most deserving to win! especially when you guys do sakura taisen together!!!! BEST-to~ rarara~ must win on behalf of singapore okay? XD

maria>> bring back JAPAN okay? XD

lalala... currently have projects on hand ne... >,< but must jia you, cause i know i can do it de...! Xd hahaX. though i do need extra helpers... gaah. gotta find those responsible de... >,< cause erm... erm... nevermind den... argh...

I NEED MORE TIME!!!!! GAAH!!!

Labels: cosplay, costumes, ganbatte, help, ITE, japan, maria, time, WCS, yuanie

listening: Per Il Senteiro by LISA ONO
mood: erm, somewhere among the clouds...

>>i've realised many ppl have changed since school started. (I'M NOT GONNA GOSSIP HERE) what happened...? what have you guys did to yourself during the 3 weeks vacations...? friends that i know are preparing to leave our class, what the bl**dy f*ck HAPPENED?!<<

just went for church service this morning. i felt the sermon today is so suited for me.

Abraham - Winning When You Don't Understand God's Ways
at times, i'm really lost, the future seems clouded, no one seems to understand. it was because ppl have once and twice again make me disappointed, or simply, i have HIGH expectations of them... but God has actually showed me grace and mercy and everything else, even when i was tough to myself... Many things in our life we don't understand, but it does not hamper us from winning under God's strength. a journey of faith is long, i have come to realise, but it's actually part of God's Journey. it would seem to be like an eternity, but it's worth the wait.

waiting can cause you to be bitter or better, i agree. i am not that patient, now i'm doing my best to be more patient, cause not everyone is on the same level as me, you see. real understading is when you actually obey them. example wld be that you're forbidden/not allowed to date, you have to obey your parents, as it is what God has entrusted you to your parents, to bring you up as a child of God. don't hurt them any longer, for your heart will be hurt, one day too.

There's so much mythology about getting together, and there's none about staying together. And staying together is what's so hard.
- Meg Ryan

Labels: afterthoughts, God's LurvE, help, holiday, ITE, relationships

Whoa… it’s been how many days since I’ve updated my blog…? 22th april minus 8th of april = almost 2 wks le… argh… been busy ar… >,<

I’ve jus started school in ITE, taking a course in Higher Nitec in Hospitailty Operations. HahaX… Yup, I do have the mind to work in the hotel industry, who knows I might get a chance to work in the IR…? X3 managed to make frens too…!!!!! HahaX… Hmm… basically for the rest of dis year, I’m not really going to have a social life ar… cause everyday gt class till ard 5, den stil gotta rush down to bishan area for night class… *sigh* yup, my social life for the year is jus ka-boom, GONE. Sh*T.

Danial>> I don’t think I’m that of a strong person. I get angry easily. I misunderstood people easil too. Yes, it’s true that I’m from a single-parent family and I’m pretty CRAZY at times, but I don’t really believe that I’m strong.

Oh my gAWD… bou is leaving Antique Café le… okay, okay, I know I’m not a OSHARE type of fan, I jus find BOU BLOODY CUTE. Well, all good things will have to come to an end, but its for the better. X3 GANBATTE BOU-chAN!!!! Rarara~~

Labels: hospitality operations, ITE