Rule One:
You will receive a body. You may love it or hate it, but it will be yours for the duration of your life on Earth.

Rule Two:
You will be presented with lessons. You are enrolled in a full-time informal school called 'life.' Each day in this school you will have the opportunity to learn lessons. You may like the lessons or hate them, but you have designed them as part of your curriculum.

Rule Three:
There are no mistakes, only lessons. Growth is a process of experimentation, a series of trials, errors, and occasional victories. The failed experiments are as much a part of the process as the experiments that work.

Rule Four:
A lesson is repeated until learned. Lessons will be repeated to you in various forms until you have learned them. When you have learned them, you can then go on to the next lesson.

Rule Five:
Learning does not end. There is no part of life that does not contain lessons. If you are alive, there are lessons to be learned.

Rule Six:
'There' is no better than 'here'. When your 'there' has become a 'here,' you will simply obtain a 'there' that will look better to you than your present 'here'.

Rule Seven:
Others are only mirrors of you. You cannot love or hate something about another person unless it reflects something you love or hate about yourself.

Rule Eight:
What you make of your life is up to you. You have all the tools and resources you need. What you do with them is up to you.

Rule Nine:
Your answers lie inside of you. All you need to do is look, listen, and trust.

Rule Ten:
You will forget all of this at birth. You can remember it if you want by unravelling the double helix of inner knowing.

--Cherie Carter-Scott, From "If Life is a Game, These are the Rules"
http://www.ijourney.org/audio.php?op=play&tid=521

Labels: 2009, afterthoughts, blessed, don't cry, forgiveness, gimme, girls, HK, HPO, pretty lights

Mood: EXCITED
Listening: Kidnap My Heart by The Click 5

Guess what?!

I’ve just received a call from XXX, to head down for an interview this Monday! (For those who don’t know what I am talking about, too bad. XP)

I am so… So… So EXCITED!!! Immediately after the call, I gave a call to Ms Deon to inform her I ‘might’ get a place there! She said to go for it, and not hesitate to grab the place first.

After that, I called otou-san to tell him the good news. I was pretty worried too, cause we are left with very little time to get a place in the hotels. He said “Don’t worry, take it slow.” Daddy’s so sweet! XD

Later on, I sms-ed Ms Saadiah, Mr Francis and Ms Pauline. Ms Saadiah replied “Gd. Go for it.” But I still had some concerns and I told her I don’t have much confidence in convincing the HR personnel to take me as a trainee. She told me not to worry and she has confidence in me.

I also sms-ed ‘him’, cause just yesterday I was sms-ing him about my worries in the Industrial Attachment. He told me to “Jia You”.

Ms Pauline called me back at around 7pm, telling me that this would be a good place for my personality, and me as this place needs people who are versatile and positive. I did tell her my concerns, about how I felt not confident enough to convince the HR department. She assured me that I would be able to do so! She also continued saying that no matter what I am given to do, I will definitely do it. She believes in me, I guess so…

I’m going to do my BEST then!

God, give me the wisdom, so that during this interview I can ace it, and convince them to accept me as a trainee. And also give me the maturity to think through what I am going to answer during the interview, as this concerns my future as a fellow hotelier in the industry. I need confidence, bravery for this interview.

Gaah! I need my CONFIDENCE!!!

**Wanted to have a fashion photoshoot on Monday, but since got interview, hmm, I’ll postpone it to a later date…

Labels: before-thoughts, boo-yeah, directions, enjoy, final year, gaah, ganbatte, gimme, grown up, hospitality operations, HPO, hugs and lurves, ITE, JAWS, leaving, lost, MAJOR

mood: XD
listening: FINALLY - fergie

oops. i haven't been updating my blog for a few dys/ weeks... >,<

news update...

#1 - had a picnic photoshoot just last saturday, 29/12/2007! a pity, it kept raining, but suki.luna had lots of fun with curs, togu, sakura hime, sandra and kit!!!! XD

#2 - i *might* be going for SOY event ne, but cosplayin-wise? probably as VK, hina ichigo of ROZEN MAIDEN or random yukata girl ba... but i wanna use my cat ears ne!!! XD heheX. *somehow i resemble ritsuka-chan...*

hmm. who should i really cosplay for the year of 2008 ne... *ponders*


-Li Syaoran of Card cAptor Sakura (project pairing with sakura hime)
-waiter outfit (am sooooo INSPIRED after watching coffee prince on TV)
-harry potter
-ritsuka of LOVELESS
-honey and clove character
-kotobuki ran of SUPER GALS! Kotobuki Ran
-Reno of Final Fantasy:Advent Children
-Sakura of Tsubasa Reservoir Chronicle

shit. why did my yukata had to be of such sucky quality ar... argh. after getting my yukata from her, i went for my photoshoot, problem is, it started ripping at all those areas. luckily, curs was so sweet enough to help me sew some of the areas up, if not i couldn't carry on with the shoot.



recently saw this harry and severus pairing cosplay pic, totemo kawaii ii desuka? XD i can't wait to do such YAOI shoot, though curs will probably try to kick my a** or something... and it's nothing wrong in liking severus and harry pairing okay!!!! *forB*dden lub!*

ja ne!!! XD

Labels: afterthoughts, cheated, fun, gaah, gimme, harry + sevvy, harry potter, photoshoot, yaoi, yukata

listening: JENNY by THE CLICK 5
mood: lalala... *floats*

gosh, it's been a month or so since i've seen him!!!! hai, suki.luna is just EXCITED okay...? heheX. finally I don't sound like a BL**DY stUPId idiot!!! >,<

gaah. gotta show my sales and marketing team members the draft/ final piece this friday. argh. i seriously don't feel like doing lor, but don't do de hua, wll kena WHACk de... >,< save me~~~

i've been deleting loads of people of my FRIENDSTER. just realise that i don't even kinow half of the friends in my friends list eh... sheesh. it's going to really take some time to clear/scan my list...

hahaX. yes!!!! my photoshoot will be this saturday!!!! ya-HOO!!!!! XD can't wait. and i've already got my venue already!!!! namine, here i come!!! XD hahaX.




i seriously want to take yp PHOTOGRAPHY!!!!! yes-HH!!!! must take those pics with lots of FEEL in it de... haHAX.

Labels: afterthoughts, gimme, PHOTOGRAPHY

listening: some of my classmates chattering in the self-access room.
mood: oops.

was reading a certain's friend's blog, when i chance upon this material/post/entry on Takuya-san's blog...

Saw this at Sgcafe.com , finally Kenshin uses his starlight breaker(rofl, the most powerful attack in Nanoha series XD), rofl. I still post this despite that Kazu, Ray and Sean kor has posted le, for the sake of my side's friends who still dun noe abt this~

http://sgcafe.com/


"SGCafe Temporary Closed 12 October 2007, 0000hrs to 2359hrs (or longer)

Reason? Because I need to rant. Yes, it's a selfish personal reason which members don't expect me to, but drastic action calls for drastic measures. Too many things are happening and 90% of the time people don't read what I say. Fine by me that you don't give two hoots about what I say, but if ANYONE still remembers the first thread I started in the news section after SGAnime switched to SGCafe, you'd know that SGCafe runs by MY RULES, MY POLICY.

I do what I want with this forum, including closing it down temporarily or permanently. So if you have even the slightest idea that you have the right to whine about the forum being closed, or that I shouldn't do it, shut the hell up and live with it. I've been having too many new people in the forums who think that SGCafe is some crazy zoo where you're able to do whatever you want and get away with it because there's no zoo keeper around. WRONG. That's not the way I run things. Senior members will probably have a better idea of how I run this place, and I am SO tired of dealing with people who don't bloody listen to other members.

Now that that's out of the picture, if you're one of those innocent members who haven't done anything (0 posts) to deserve my fury, my apologies for dragging your reading pleasure into this. For everyone else, there are 1001 things that could have pissed me off during your days as an SGCafe member. There might be a few people who didn't, but I probably can count you with my fingers.

I'm not getting heard by the members, members do not know me (I don't mean personally) nor know what I am saying. That's my main concern. I don't have any worry for the senior members (you know who you are), because you know how to contact me and get things done. The reason I'm guessing is that when SGAnime moved to SGCafe, there were barely 2,000 members. Now, there are 6,000 members, so we're looking at 4,000 new members, of which probably 1/2 of you are the ones who are the cause of this temporary closure. You have no idea how I want this forum to run, do NOT make the effort to find out, and simply just click the post button either to voice out (good), or simply to increase your GOD DAMN POST COUNT (bad).

Fine, half of the above problems are my fault. I was busy for a couple of years so I didn't have time to sort out the forum stuff. By the time I did, it was probably too late. The news section needs a cleanup but I haven't gotten around doing it. That still doesn't mean you as a member, do not have the responsibility to find out information on your own.

Some history for those that don't know. When I was running SGAnime, it was based on one single rule, common sense. Every post, every action, had to have some common sense involved. "Do not do to others what you do not want done to yourself." It worked well for some time until people started getting personal with me. I tried to make everyone happy, so I did stuff for good of the majority of members, not just listen to the mobs who were against it and voiced. I fought my own wars then, and got tired, which resulted in the forming of SGCafe, and the major change to the rules. Common sense still applies, but I call the final shot. If I say NO, its NO, regardless of what you think. Worked pretty well for then, until now when the situation has gotten what I'll call, out of hand, because the 2,000 members I'm looking at have NO idea what I am talking about, this "common sense" thing.

FFA. Free For All. This is the way I wanted SGAnime, and now SGCafe to run. This is the mentality I have, which some, but not all of you know. I didn't make specific mention of this, but I think I should now since I'm ranting. Free For All refers to the right for anyone to say whatever they want. Of course, FFA alone is a REALLY bad idea. I can imagine how chaotic the situation would have gotten very quickly, so I implemented the need for common sense. For you, to use WHATEVER common sense you had in you to decide what to say, and whether or not to say it. By doing so, you will also need to BEAR RESPONSIBLITY for what you said. In short, what I wanted was an unmoderated forum, where members could interact peacefully (as far as possible) in a civilized manner, always exercising common sense and responsiblity.

Now, when I refer to common sense, a lot of people, especially the 2,000 of you I'm targeting are going to say stuff like common sense is what you think is right. NO, NO and NO. That's not common sense, that's your selfish ego. Common sense is what is "common" to everyone, meaning what the majority think is right. Think about others, and their response to your post, before posting something that's probably going to piss everyone off. If it doesn't need to be said, don't say it.

One thing I see in common with a lot of new members (and some old ones), the lack of RESPECT. How are you going to co-exist with someone without an ounce of respect for each other? Peacefully or non-peacefully, there still needs to be some form of respect, which I see very much lacking in the forums. I can't teach you respect, but without respect, you're not going to be able to exercise common sense. Either find some way to learn both respect and common sense, or keep quiet.

Flaming. I already expected flames, and already decided that I WILL NOT GET INVOLVED. FIGHT YOUR OWN WAR WITH YOUR OWN WORDS. Unmoderated means I do not take any action against content, except when it is absolutely necessary to, such as legal reasons. I probably didn't "advertise" this stance of mine enough, but here it is. I DO NOT GET INVOLVED IN FLAMES. I DO NOT CLOSE THREADS WHEN YOU ASK ME TO. I DECIDE WHETHER OR NOT I WANT TO TAKE ACTION. Thread owners are expected to close their own threads, get them to close the thread if you need to, but it's their own decision whether or not to do it. If you feel you have been defamed, insulted, whatever, find a lawyer and he/she will know how to contact me.

Lack of moderators is the other complain I see all over the place, and usually by the newer members. First, what is the point in having moderators in a forum that is suppose to be unmoderated? You are suppose to be able to freely post whatever you want (exercising common sense) without being restricted by moderators. Second, every person thinks differently, which means every moderator is going to have a different opinion. I'm going to have hell trying to manage all these different people, opinions and decisions in the forums. So no, I run this forum by myself and it stays that way. If you think I need to step in (after making sure the above are met), contact me. Whining about having moderators in threads, or posting in a thread saying "Kenshin/Admin, do something" is not going to work because I BARELY read any thread. You want my attention, make sure it DESERVES my attention then contact me via PM or email.

Spamming is fine by me, but again, exercise common sense. Spam where you're suppose to spam, use your DAMN COMMON SENSE. Who am I talking about? Someone posts a complain thread about spamming, and you go SPAM IN THERE? Where's your BLOODY RESPECT FOR OTHERS? Where's your COMMON SENSE? This is the no. 1 reason to spark me off this rant. I definitely didn't expect such a response to someone who put up an honest complaint. I asked the thread starter to close the thread and start a new one, and what happens? Same damn thing. Didn't bother to see the closed thread on the same page? Must I totally change my policy outright and stop all spamming? Respect the thread starter, keep to the topic if the thread starter wants it that way. Do your spamming in the right places.

I don't ban people unless necessary, and when I mean necessary, I mean when banning works. I ban one account, they just start another, so what's the point? Asking me to ban people who can easily create a new account is not going to work. You don't want them to spam or irritate you, stop feeding them by replying to their posts. Ignore them, the option is in the control panel. Do whatever necessary in your own power, stop expecting me to spoonfeed you by taking care of all these problems. This is a public forum, you're going to have all sorts of people, live with it.

I'll work out some way to put up this information so that new members from now on know, and will remember, but that'll take some time. Everyone needs to know how I want to run this place, work with me to have this place running properly. You want a good time here, so do I. I want to give you a good time, but you need to help yourself first.

Targeted groups of people now. I see an influx of 14-16 year olds (as of 2007) joining the forums. I'm not trying to discriminate against all of you, but some of you obviously do not know how to respect the older members. These members are probably older than you, and can be considered your elders. Minus some of them who are probably acting like kids instead of their age (you bunch can join the REAL under 16s in my rant), most of them have more experience in life than yourself, so listen and respect. I know most teenages nowadays simply don't listen to their parents/elders and are very rebellious, but I'm not having any of that rubbish in my forum. Either you learn to respect every other member and even more for members than yourself, or else delete SGCafe from your bookmarks and stay out. Find somewhere else to feed that attitude of yours, definitely not SGCafe. Also, regardless of my age, I expect some decent respect when you talk to me. Get your high and mighty attitude out of the window before even attempting to PM/email me, or reply to any post I make. I will make your SGCafe life a living hell IF I want to, so don't make me go that route. When I say something to you, I expect you to listen, like it or not. Whoever pissed me off on this accord, you better know who you are, cause the next time you piss me off again, I'm not holding back.

Commerical entities. There have been people representing various shops/companies in the forums over the past few month. I am fine with the occasional advertisement in the announcement forum, and mentioning that your shop/company provides the service/product in various threads, but what I do NOT want to see is false advertisement or blatent brainwashing of the members. You know who you are, I don't need to say further. As again, don't make me do things unnecessary, cause when it becomes necessary, you sure as hell don't want to see me do stuff.

SGMarket. I've already did the tidying up of the SGMarket forum into categories. I EXPECT you to read the sticky in the forum before posting. The rules of the market are in there. I already banned some people from SGMarket, and I will not hesitate to do so again if you do not follow the rules. It's the only place with rules, and only a few simple rules. If you can't follow them, don't post anything, simple as that. Sick and tired of having to do extra clean up work. My thanks to those who followed the rules and also those who helped report. Your effort in keeping the SGMarket forums clean and tidy is great, keep up the good work.

Trades and orders. Trades I mean buying/selling in the forums. Bad trades happen all the time. People disappear before/after the trade. There's no guarantee or anything, and that's just it. There's nothing I can do to help, banning is out of the question, rating is not easy to do. The easiest way is for you to warn everyone by actively monitoring the market for people who you have dealt with and had bad experiences. Same for mass/pre orders, there have been many cases where things don't go well. If you have a bad experience, go ahead and post in the sellers' threads, both new and old. If you have a real case, I'll not take any action, no matter what the thread starter says. And sellers/orderers, please don't do business unless you're sure you can handle it.

Announcement forum. I'll be frank. The whole lot of you that are posting all sorts of crap in the announcement forums? You're childish. Fighting, mimicing each other's threads, turning the announcement forum into some kind of A vs B forum. I'm not doing anything yet because I'm not getting involved, but look at yourselves. Some of you are adults behaving like kids, the rest of you who aren't kids or acting like kids, are adding oil into the flames. If you have something constructive, fine. The announcement forum is for members to share information with each other, definitely NOT for the kind of threads I've been seeing.

Trolls & attention seekers. There are bound to be people like that. But the rest of you come bitching to me about them, when you obviously are giving them what they want, ATTENTION. Ignore them, treat them as invisible, and it'll probably work better than you getting involved in a mud slinging fest with them. You're giving them the attention they want, and they'll just keep on going. Then you come complaining to me about them? Deal with these people yourself, find ways, means, whatever.

Unhappy with Kenshin people. Some people don't like me. Some people hate me. After this closure, my guess is the number is probably going to increase. Sorry, but I don't like you much either. You don't like the way I do things? Leave. You don't like me threathening or actually closing the forum like this? Leave. I've given up pleasing everyone. I please myself and the majority who want SGCafe to keep going. If you're the minority, either learn to co-exist, or just please just leave.

People who ask me to act. I appreciate the help that you guys are doing, letting me know if something requires my attention. but I hope you will really read the above, and make sure that it does deserve my attention. Whoever reported the spam complaint thread, thanks. But whoever is reporting the announcement threads, trolling threads, etc, no thank you. Based on the above, the chances for me to act is unlikely because you guys/gals need to settle it yourselves.

I'll end my rant here. If you want to treat this temporary closure as a punishment, fine. If you're innocently punished, sorry, but it's not my fault, go blame the above people I mentioned. I have no idea what else I can do to get people to listen anymore, so this is what I'll do whenever things get out of hand. Hate me if you want, this is still my forum and I'll do things my way, the way I want for the majority of members to be able to enjoy the forums. I'm not running this forum for my own good. A huge amount of money and effort is spent running a forum this large and the least you as a member can do is work with me and keep the forum a great place for hanging out.

Kenshin"

wow. this is what i ACTUALLY HAVE in mind for a very long time.

i've been in sgcafe (http://sgcafe.com) for almost 2 years, in singaporeanimenews for about 2 years too! well, recently there have been lots of FLAMING around...! and i'm DEAD SERIOUS about this! i have cosplayers who do not seriously give me the respect though i'm older than them. (and you think i'll mention names, no way dude.)

flame. flame. flame. whe are they going to stop?! when are they going to take a step back, and think it through?! till someone's hurt, and report to the police?! some people even say they enjoy watching people flame online, gosh. this is CHILDISH. i repeat, CHILDISH!!!!!! argh...

if scared people "EAT" your money when you buy something from them, then DON'T BUY.

i want my SGCAFE.com, so u want to FLAME/SPAM USELESS NONESENSE, you can just f*ck off.

and give me my bl**dy due respect in the forum!!!!

Labels: afterthoughts, boo-yeah, FUCK YOU, gaah, gimme, grown up, help, RANDOM, reliefed, sgcafe.com, SHOCK, SHORT-CIRCUIT, smack bUTTS, thanks, what about maturity

listening: big girls don't cry - FERGIE (boo-yeah!)
mood: blank. *ptui

you see, you have proven me right! and you finally knew the entry was dedicated to you!

you blame me for not having MSN?! bl**dy trivial! i'm not using hotmail anymore by the way!

maybe i am a kid trying to be an adult, gosh, aren't we all the same?

after what you've been through, can't i be worried for you? each time you're hurt, do you know i feel so crap-up for you?! each time you fall into depression, i feel so sh*tty!

okay, if you forgot your phone, i have nothing much to say. but do you know the way you just brush me off after that, i expected better from you, do you know that?! i called some of your friends, asking whether did you mentioned anything to them, that was how worried i was!

well, i didn't know life was so not worth living for! after all you've been through...!

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gosh... i'm having low blood pressure now. been having this sudden drop in sugar level for the past few days, just hope it's not something else i dread the most...

gosh, i ain't perfect!

i used to have thoughts of commiting suicide, imagine when i die, wondering who will come to my funeral, who will cry over my body. but HEY! i won't do THAT ANYMORE! life's still worth living!

i will be a good mother to my kids, i'll adopt kids too. i'll read to them story books every night, making them laugh with the very bad impersonation of the 3 lil' piggies. i'll kiss them good night, slobbering over them like a dog. i'll tell them how much i love them, unlike how little my mum has ever said such words to me...

shhh.

...I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry...

we're all growing, learning, loving, each time we take a breath on this earth, do you know that? each time we smile, laugh, frown, it's emotions EVOKED.

perhaps we lost people in our life, perhaps we love someone who those not return the favor, perhaps we might feel like ending our life now, please don't lose hope. Hope is a beautiful thing (somebody thought me this...! *winks). it makes you carry on with your life, no matter hard it could be...

...The path that I'm walking
I must go alone
I must take the baby steps 'til I'm full grown, full grown
Fairytales don't always have a happy ending, do they?
And I foresee the dark ahead if I stay...

slowly, you'll see how i feel.

...Like the little school mate in the school yard
We'll play jacks and uno cards
I'll be your best friend and you'll be my Valentine
Yes you can hold my hand if you want to
'Cause I want to hold yours too
We'll be playmates and lovers and share our secret worlds
But it's time for me to go home
It's getting late, dark outside
I need to be with myself and center, clarity
Peace, Serenity...

I'M ECCENTRIC, don't forget this fact!!!!

Labels: adopt, afterthoughts, boo-yeah, change, dissapointed, don't cry, gaah, gimme, grown up, help, hurts, lost, love, more than words, over you, panic, thanks, unrequited love, what about maturity

listening: stay all night - lisa ono
mood: VIOLATED. *roar*

gaah. i guess everyone has already read the last book, "Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows". well, i find the ending pretty bad.

okay, okay, i was actually looking forward of harry potter dying, okay... damnit, he has to live just to name his kids after his mum, dad, dumbledore and severus... >,< hey, i'm waiting for you to kill him okay?! gaah.

argh. I'M PISSED. gimme my DANIEL RADCLIFFE!!!!!!! *growl*

Labels: gimme, harry potter, pottermania

listening: What i've done - Linkin Park
mood: erm. pretty peachy, i guess...

bwahahaha...! i'm gonna WATCH HARRY POTTER and the ORDER of the PHONEIX this week!!!! lurve my DANIEL RADCLIFFE!!!!!! XD

i think i'm going to start to PANIC again, cause certain things are not really done yet... >,< gaah!!! tasukete kudasai~

just bought this book "I kiss dating goodbye" by josh harris. SERIOUSLY, i've gotta stop putting myself in such relationships, that does not seem to benefit either God or me... it's also about COMMITMENT. sheesh, people nowadays don't know what's the real meaning of commitment. gosh, we're just NAiVE, aren't we...? (yup, i'm also one of them...)

i just cut my hair, and i look damn BOYISH!!!!!! gaah, should have told the auntie to cut like my previous sunao hairstyle... damn... the auntie was kind of buay song, ever since i brought my namine wig for her to trim just 2 weeks back... sheesh, if you dun wan to cut, you cld have say so, i'll just find someone else to trim for me... just for a lil' trim, you bl**dy hell overcharge me lor... wah lao...

*sigh* school's gonna start soon, eh... and it's this coming monday~~~ no~~~~ i still want my holiday~~~~~ gimme~ gimme~ gimme~ gimme back my holiday~~~ ;,;

Labels: afterthoughts, boyish-looking, gimme, God's LurvE, holiday, ORDER, overcharge, panic