When I woke up, I was alone In a room painted black I couldn't see or hear anything One person shivering in the darkness
The cieling had a large hole It was easy to see a big spring in it Suddenly there was a sound I knew this ghastly voice
"Boy's crimes are getting old" "You're far from me forever" "It left from this room" it said
Remembering all of that moment Naturally repeating that sin over and over Realizing the reason it all ended Having to go back to those days
Both of my arms are in red handcuffs Someone is surely spilling the colour of blood Both of my ankles are in blue chains They are surely the colour of someone's tears
"Ru ri ra ru ri ra.." the song said Who seems to be singing this lullaby..
How much time seems to go by Searching for the changing spring Suddenly I hear A singing voice to heal me
One day I notice That the song has a real meaning And now it's my lullaby New words are added to it
From the opening of the spring A tiny northern light Very surely You're giving a message
The spring's surroundings start to talk quietly "It's not that your sins aren't tolerated" However, the water spoke and evil spoke We will try to change those facts
The red handcuffs fall off and I start to talk "After this, you will be born again" The blue shackles fall off and I talk to you "Today is your new Birthday"
Everything around us is dyed white Very soon we will meet again
It gets pretty amazing to me at times, about human nature. It seems like everyone’s so contradicting, myself included.
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People will come up to me and tell me stuff like how so-and-so left him/her out and literally kick them out of their lives. Then they leave you after they are done with you. Isn’t it contradicting?
If you dislike people leaving you in the lurch when you need them, why don’t you not do it to others too? The kettle calling the pot black, you know that?
Sometimes you got to ask yourself, it might be the so-and-so’s fault, but always remember this. It takes 1 to know, 2 to clap. So it also meant that you might have also done something in return for so-and-so reciprocate. So don’t go blaming them for leaving you, you made your choice, so did they.
But sometimes I think you wouldn’t understand how much it meant, afterall you’re still a XMM.
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There are times I need to leave my relationships too. Many might wonder I must be cold-hearted to do it, but guess what? I am not. I choose to end it faster and earlier as it wouldn’t be fair for me to carry on something which seriously will not change.
Why would anyone still continue to wait for changes that will never ever happen?
So it means I will also not hesitate to leave you if I have to. Be it my friends, lover, family.
--- I would say I am a very reasonable person within reasonable means.
You treat me well, I will treat you well back in return.
You don’t treat me well, just head to Hell alright? Someone I know has already reserved the spot for you.
If you continue to keep things to yourself and start your nonsense like emo-ing, please don’t mind if I fuck you up. You deserve it so badly that you didn’t realized that people like us have been real patient to wait. To wait for you to tell us what is going on.
I can actually give you an actual solution to your problem.
JUST LET IT GO.
There isn’t any point for you to continue on like this, torturing both yourself and your friends. You should see through the problem, all you need to do is to learn to let go. I would empathies with you as I have been through similar route before. The answer was all along in front of me, yet I couldn’t do so myself. I learned it the hard way, family couldn’t understand exactly the problem, friends left me and me? I was stuck in this dark place, not knowing my next step.
Aren’t you one lucky child? To have us all around you?
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Why is it so amazing that certain people love to play stunts on facebook? Like changing your relationship status ever so quickly? This isn’t a fashion show, my dear.
Do you know changing your relationship status frequently, shows your confusion about love? Like how much one might be confused about their sexuality?
Show your maturity by holding yourself back to see the actual problem in your relationship, rather than being a ‘show-off’, switching your relationship status every few days. It’s an eyesore especially if you do it more than 3 times.
You realized he might not have been loving you like how you do to him. But do note, in love, there will always be one party who loves more than the other. It’s a strange concept to explain, perhaps only experiencing it thoroughly you would really comprehend the situation. So be a strong girl and work it out?
You probably lack the inner peace, like what I have been telling the BF for some time already.
--- I dislike long status updates on facebook. It seems to have turned into an essay not an update. Probably I should email the facebook management to create a word limit for your account.
Do you know why I dislike long updates? Cause it’s like an never-ending advertisement.
In advertising, you should have punchlines and brings in suckers to buy your products. If you were to see long-winded advertisement slogans, won’t you get irritated? You probably get so turned-off, everytime you see it in the media, be it print, tv or radio, you would roll your eyes so often.
Please note I am also an old lady, the font size seems to have shrunk through time, so please don’t bother to test my eyesight further okay?
--- I love it when certain people asks stupid questions to someone about me being close with a certain person.
Guess what honey? Mind your own business, sensei.
You are no one to me, so don’t go snooping around like Snoop Dog. I can get you a leash if you want though.
If I hear such things again, your name is going down in history.
*p.s. plus personal stuff I can ‘find’ about you *p.s.s. I am a stalker on the sideline.
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It doesn’t really matter to me if you think I am talking about YOU, because I think I have done my part . If you think I am , good for you and improve on your ‘human nature’. If not, still learn from these failures and not repeat the same mistakes again.
Yours Sincerely The JAWS* who is going through bad mood swings
Where it began, I can't begin to know when
But then I know it's growing strong
Oh, wasn't the spring, whooo
And spring became the summer
Who'd believe you'd come along
Hands, touching hands, reaching out
Touching me, touching you
Oh, sweet Caroline
Good times never seem so good
I've been inclined to believe it never would
And now I, I look at the night, whooo
And it don't seem so lonely
We fill it up with only two, oh
And when I hurt
Hurting runs off my shoulder
How can I hurt when holding you
Oh, one, touching one, reaching out
Touching me, touching you
Oh, sweet Caroline
Good times never seem so good
Oh I've been inclined to believe it never would
Ohhh, sweet Caroline, good times never seem so good
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I'll reach out and touch you like how you've done for me...! :)
Smile tho' your heart is aching, Smile Even though it's breaking, When there are clouds in the sky- You'll get by, If you Smile through your fear and sorrow, Smile and maybe tomorrow You'll see the sun come shining through- For you.
Light up your face with gladness, Hide ev'ry trace of sadness, Altho' a tear may be ever so near, That's the time (thats the time) you must keep on trying, Smile- What's the use of crying, You'll find that life is still worthwhile, If you just smile.
Ohhh Oooh Yeah
That's the time (thats the time) you must keep on trying, Smile- What's the use of crying, You'll find that life is still worthwhile, If you just smile.
Smile tho' your heart is aching, Smile Even though it's breaking, When there are clouds in the sky- You'll get by,
That's the time (thats the time) you must keep on trying, Smile- What's the use of crying, You'll find that life is still worthwhile, If you just You'll find that life is still worthwhile, If you just smile.
It happened that in this dream, I was attached/married to someone whom I am unable to recognise.
Through the dream, I realised I was also pregnant, though still in the early stages. I "found" out only before the trip I had to go with the other half/hubby/boyfriend.
And guess what?
I woke up at like 8++am, asking myself silently, "Where's the baby?"
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It felt so freaky, I twitter-ed about it...
Then I told the BF and Gengar about it, since we've met up for dinner along with Papa & Nya/Nia.
The Bf was a little surprised though, he asked who the guy was. I couldn't answer him, cause it was someone I have never met before...
Gengar commented that it might be something that might happened in the future, and it might not either, which I totally agree on it... She even suggested I should try having the dream interpretated.
But it still seem so strange, as this is the 2nd time I have dreamed of such similar situations.
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