Friday, 22 May 2009 @ 3:15:00 pm
packed like sardines
weekend is here *soon. 8D
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seriously, am looking forward to meeting
dmsasaki and
naoko tomorrow! :)
i think i should do out my schedule soon, since i will be 監督/撮影者 to dmsasaki's shoot in end July/early August. :3
= can't disclose series/theme = PRIVATE & CONFIDENTIAL =
After Cosfest, fuzzy and I will be working on simple projects together!
*fuzzy, want to try sheryl nome? 8D
Onwards in September/October, I will be doing a
Macross Frontier shoot,
Midori-Rish and dmsasaki as my 監督/撮影者 too! :)
*looking forward to this shoot along with Isarandel as RANKA-CHAN!
**PHOTOGRAPHERS, THIS IS YOUR TIME TO APPLY. 8D
HARRY POTTER WILL BE ON TEH' BIG SCREEN THIS JULY, JUST IN TIME FOR MY BIRTHDAY! :D
Well, totally looking forward to seeing/meeting new and old people! :)
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checklist:
- sheryl nome of macross frontier
- ben tennyson of ben10 = series 1 & 2
- ranka lee of macross frontier
- ami of hihi puffy amiyumi
- kagamine rin & len of vocaloid
Labels: 2009, Daniel Radcliffe, happy, happy birthday, RANDOM
Friday, 1 May 2009 @ 12:01:00 am
in a little while, we will all leave together, because tonight’s the night
Listening: Tell Her by Jesse Mccartney
Mood: Sad :(
I have rarely writen this much on my blog, I noticed after penning all this while having slight insomnia.
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There are people I know who write truthfully about their feelings, yet others write about their life so vaguely, that you can’t even see the ripples in the water. I admire those who really write with their heart.
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There are people who will be part of your life because they have made an impact on you, there are others who might mean something to you now, but they won’t in the future.
They are people I used to think I know them until things happened, then I realised, they were actually blind all these while, like those blind rats/mice you used to sing about when you were still in nursery/kindergarten/primary school(s). They were so blind that they get so absorb with what they think will make them happy, isn’t it sad?
After it is what they THINK that makes them happy.
Through these years, since secondary school, I learned to grow up without my so-called friends and the adults that I used to befriend when I was still in FCBC. They lie to you that they will ALWAYS be there for you, but in actual fact they leave without a trace, expecting you to pick up after them.
There was a group of friends whom I thought was really my friend due to an amount of time we knew each other, but things happened yet they do not want to open their eyes to see.
We are all over already, I did what I can to care for you as a friend, as a sister, as a mother, as a lover, but you threw it aside, not me as simple as that.
I wouldn’t really say that it was a real sad time then, because I knew it was God’s test on me, on my patience, my sanity, my mind, my life.
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During the 4 years in HS, some teachers perish yet the others perserved. There were people whom I thought was my friend, but in actual fact they were a wolf in sheep’s clothing. People whom I’ve trusted and others whom I also gave up on.
And slowly I grew up though I couldn’t see myself any longer, I was lost like them too.
There are things I need to work out on my own, like my loyalty to God, after what happened when I was in church. It was something I couldn’t really believe that would happened to me 3 times under the same network, that it depressed me for over a period of time.
Was it the Devil’s doing or was it God’s will that I leave this church?
I do hope it is the latter.
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‘O’ levels came and went, and I was finally an ITE student, doing my Higher NITEC in Hospitality Operations. It was sad though, as I was the only HS student in class/campus, the wound was still fresh and I was real paranoid.
There was a point I wanted to give up just like some other students who have left our class, but I told, or I shall say, rudely reminded myself,
“Amelia, don’t be stupid. There are people out there who are fighting for this place, and you’re just going to give up just like this?! Don’t be stupid, girl. You, yourself, said that this is what you are REALLY interested in and you said that you will prove certain people wrong about yourself. So you better not give up…!”
Slowly I got to know of people who love me and hate me.
There were people who were willing to be true, and there were others who weren’t as real as they think.
There were people who made and break me too.
We learned together, we worked together, we fought together.
Love was exchanged, battles were won and lost, friendship grew stronger and weaker in the meantime.
We spent 1 1/2 years together, irritating and loving everyone to the core, camwhoring like no one’s business, cheered like we have never been before.
Things I keep seeing in my mind when I close my eyes:
Michael’s class cheer, Maya as our Rihanna, Nelly’s ‘singing’, Weitin’s participation in World Skills making us so proud of her, Sunarti saying, “JAWS, shuddup lar.” with that cheeky grin on her face, the nasi padang I patronised everyday with kak Sue, Ahda as the very cheerful girl no matter what happens, huifen as my manga partner, kade who will always call me “Dewgong”, there are loads I couldn’t finish describing here without tearing up and crying like a baby.
I seriously miss the times we all have together. I never thought 1 1/2 years would go by so fast in just a blink of an eye.
To those people who laugh at me, and others who laugh with me all these while.
I love you.
HPO, you have made the impact that I can never imagined happening.
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Graduation day will be happening in 1 week’s time or so.
I get emotional when I think of it as our last time together as a class.
Tears will definitely cling on me as we hug each other for the last time before we all go our separate ways, some to school, some to work and others to NS.
It might be impossible, yet it might happened if we made the effort. Please, let us all stay in contact, via smses, phonecalls, blogging, facebook, and what we can get.
I won’t forget you guys.
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Note: I will leave this entry on my blog till the end of Graduation day.
*Usual updates will be on
LJ
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In a little while, we will all leave together, because tonight’s the night.
Be sure to make your final bow before our exits.
Labels: 2009, don't cry, friends, hospitality operations, ITE, love, lurve ones
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