Labels: 2009, life, notes, occasions, over you, time

Labels: HPO, not looking, over you, p*ssed, ruBBISH, SCREW OFF LAR

listening: big girls don't cry - FERGIE (boo-yeah!)
mood: blank. *ptui

you see, you have proven me right! and you finally knew the entry was dedicated to you!

you blame me for not having MSN?! bl**dy trivial! i'm not using hotmail anymore by the way!

maybe i am a kid trying to be an adult, gosh, aren't we all the same?

after what you've been through, can't i be worried for you? each time you're hurt, do you know i feel so crap-up for you?! each time you fall into depression, i feel so sh*tty!

okay, if you forgot your phone, i have nothing much to say. but do you know the way you just brush me off after that, i expected better from you, do you know that?! i called some of your friends, asking whether did you mentioned anything to them, that was how worried i was!

well, i didn't know life was so not worth living for! after all you've been through...!

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gosh... i'm having low blood pressure now. been having this sudden drop in sugar level for the past few days, just hope it's not something else i dread the most...

gosh, i ain't perfect!

i used to have thoughts of commiting suicide, imagine when i die, wondering who will come to my funeral, who will cry over my body. but HEY! i won't do THAT ANYMORE! life's still worth living!

i will be a good mother to my kids, i'll adopt kids too. i'll read to them story books every night, making them laugh with the very bad impersonation of the 3 lil' piggies. i'll kiss them good night, slobbering over them like a dog. i'll tell them how much i love them, unlike how little my mum has ever said such words to me...

shhh.

...I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry...

we're all growing, learning, loving, each time we take a breath on this earth, do you know that? each time we smile, laugh, frown, it's emotions EVOKED.

perhaps we lost people in our life, perhaps we love someone who those not return the favor, perhaps we might feel like ending our life now, please don't lose hope. Hope is a beautiful thing (somebody thought me this...! *winks). it makes you carry on with your life, no matter hard it could be...

...The path that I'm walking
I must go alone
I must take the baby steps 'til I'm full grown, full grown
Fairytales don't always have a happy ending, do they?
And I foresee the dark ahead if I stay...

slowly, you'll see how i feel.

...Like the little school mate in the school yard
We'll play jacks and uno cards
I'll be your best friend and you'll be my Valentine
Yes you can hold my hand if you want to
'Cause I want to hold yours too
We'll be playmates and lovers and share our secret worlds
But it's time for me to go home
It's getting late, dark outside
I need to be with myself and center, clarity
Peace, Serenity...

I'M ECCENTRIC, don't forget this fact!!!!

Labels: adopt, afterthoughts, boo-yeah, change, dissapointed, don't cry, gaah, gimme, grown up, help, hurts, lost, love, more than words, over you, panic, thanks, unrequited love, what about maturity

listening: When You're Gone by AVRIL LAVIGNE
mood: hmm. probably on cloud9.

i managed to 'OFFICIALLY' got to know him. pretty embarassing, though i had the help from my friends, esp Sue, Nirah'bella, Mariana, Danial, Prem and a couple more. thanks, guys. XD

... always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie is made up on your side...

he reminded so much of a friend whom i've known a very long time back, probably 3 to 4 years ago. i regretted losing that friendship with that friend, due to some family issues, really regretted it.

we took the same bus together back, as we were living quite near, and started chatting. well, he's nice...

...I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do reminds me of you
And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor
And they smell just like you, I love the things that you do

When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now...

he actually asked what if he didn't want to be in relationship, how would i feel. so i replied, "do you want the truth or you want the lies?"
he laughed, wanting the truth. i replied back...
"well, i would be disppointed, no doubt. but i'll just take it that i've gained a good friend...!"

shh, he's a wonderful guy, that's what i can say, though i would secretly pray that something good will happen from now on...



Innocent Uke
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ara, ara. suki.luna's an INNOCENT UKE...! XD

finoa>> lurve euu lots.

...All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I'd do, I'd give my heart and soul...

Labels: afterthoughts, hospitality operations, ITE, love, over you

listening: never again - kelly clarkson
mood: more P*SEED then ever...

you're just one of the UGLIEST people i've ever seen. gosh. really ugly. and i'm not talking about looks. i couldn't believe you to do that to me...! what an ugly heart you have. you better lose them now, you'll be even more heartless than those you see in KINGDOM HEARTS.

...I hope the ring you gave to her turns her finger green
I hope when your in bed with her, you think of me
I would never wish bad things, but I don't wish you well
Could you tell, by the flames that burned your words...

you never bothered to know people, do you?

...Does it hurt to know I'll never be there
Bet it sucks, to see my face everywhere
It was you, who chose to end it like you did
I was the last to know
You knew exactly what you would do
And don't say, you simply lost your way
She may believe you but I never will
Never again...

i'll never again believe you... you a**hole... you think you can ripped my heart and go off pretending nthg ever happened, eh?! guess what! no such thing! not even in this lifetime! gosh, i wish you were never born...

...If she really knows the truth, she deserves you
A trophy wife, oh how cute
Ignorance is bliss
But when your day comes, and he's through with you
And he'll be through with you
You'll die together but alone...

i'll make sure i'll reveal your d*rty lil' secrets, who knows whether have you hurt anyone else that i lurve and care for... sheesh. i can't trust you now, neither will i in the future.

you're just one DISGUSTING GIT. can you just die or something?

curs>> by the way, if haldir keeps attacking you. show her this post of mine.

haldir>> please shut your bl**dy trap for everyone is so P*ssed with your all-so-saint remarks about people from my team. gosh, you're DAMN "NAIVE" eh?! you don't own harry potter for merlin's-sake! you're already how old for pete's sake? grow up! you do any sh*t again, seriously, i'll make sure you can't sleep for the next bl**dy one week. just SHUT UP, will 'ya?

sarahcoldheart>> i'll suggest you to opened your sesame-sized eyes to look at what type of friends you're mixing with. it's disgusting to have such people around.

i've had it. JUST SHUT UP AND DIE.

Labels: afterthoughts, AVADA KECAVRA, bleh, cheated, cosFUCK, cursendra, FUCK YOU, grown up, harry potter, memories, more than words, over you

...Saying I love you
Is not the words I want to hear from you
It's not that I want you
Not to say, but if you only knew
How easy it would be to show me how you feel
More than words is all you have to do to make it real
Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me
Cos I'd already know...

to a certain onii-chan of mine...>>*sigh* i dun want to go back into e relationship again, after being hurt... doesn't mean that i'm SINGLE, i have to get a boyfriend right? you are now just my onii-chan, nothing else... i cant give you that LAST chance anymore, cause you BLEW IT! anyway, i have told what type of a guy/man that i want, and i shall say it again. I want a man who's after God's favor. i don't want a man who BLAMES everything on the fault of the women, cause it takes 2 to clap. gaah... it's affecting me again... ptui~<<

>,< finally found out what was the problem with my blog ar. forgot to remove another code thgy... sheesh. i'm just DUMB w/ things relating to the computer...

roxas80>> i'm really sorry, for making such a selfish request...!!!!! gomen, laogong~~~ >,<

claude>> eek~ get well soon 'kay...? XD mummy kiss euu~~

hmm... so long no read YAOI fanfics le... i better find smthg nice to read... probably smthg w/ SWEET LURVE~ XP esp b/w yaoi lurvers... sweet...

sheesh. i find harry + sevvy pairings pretty adorable, that i'm writing one myself... sweet lURVE!

another 13 days or so to HARRY POTTER & the ORDER of PHOENIX!!!!! XD

Labels: afterthoughts, change, more than words, over you, yaoi

listening: over you - chris daughtry (f*CK)

The greatest courage is the courage to be happy - Tibetan Proverb

gaah. why do i want to do something so RASH?! i was so close to diclosing thhings about him!!!! >,< argh. better sit down and cool down, man.

well, suki.luna is proud of herself today, cause she finished her NAFA test le, though don't think I'l pass all the test, i'm never the sports type of students... >,< i was cheering people even when i was running! hahaX. that's me, when i'm out of my mind, though not really DAT out of my mind.
my vacation is staring this week! yahho! am working for the next ten days starting from this saturday! yeah~ money~

i'll go cut my hair during the vacation too, i think... i want to start afresh ar...!!! after all this things... wouldn't anyone else one to start afresh too...?

gaah!!!! why does these few love songs seem to be playing in my mind?! gaah! *bangs head against table* argh. why. does. it. have. to. happen. to. me. gaah.

finoa>> sorry, for being DAMN tough to you. (tough lurve!) do try to put yourself in my shoe... i understand things that you're going through now.

kairi>> DAMN it. i think i'm in LURVE with you! hahaX... jus joking... i wanna meet up with you! X3

claude>> sorry ar. mummy today not really feeling that well. muacks~ but thanks for organizing anyway!

daisuke>> macross gave me my pics liao~ where's mine?! hahaX.

f*cking a**hole who broke my heart months back>> f*ck you. if i find out you're doing the same thing to your girl, you shall never see the daylight. f*ck you, bastard. i'm now your friend, not your girl anymore, so you better watch your back. your girl might be reading my blog any moment.

i want my MAROON 5!!!!!!!!!! maROON 5!!!!!!!! maroon 5!!!!!!

i'm bringing sexyback, yeah~ sh*t. DAMN affected by SHA liao. *growls*

GIVE ME MY MAROON 5!!!!!!!!!!!!

Labels: asshole, FUCK YOU, gaah, HIGH, hurts, kairi, maroon 5, over you, relationships