my dear 'friend'/whoever/anonymous-shitface,

could you at least use a name when commenting on my blog entry?! 8D

be a brave little girl/boy/human-beings...! \o/

Do I even know you in the first place?
Why are you even calling me by a nick my OTHER friends call me by? :D

link: http://suki-luna.livejournal.com/65701.html

whoever-this-random-babe/dude-is reply:

"hi suki, i think he lost his way when he was with his class, his groupie. it was a whole lot of bad influence that was pulling him all the way to the negative side. he may look happy to you on the outside yes. but on the inside, you never know how bad and dark his soul has already been affected. all mainly because of the type of friends he had. You see, good friends respect one another. Respect doesn't only mean say thank you or not being rude. But respect means you don't say crude remarks about your friend's gf/bf. You don't tell your friend to turn your back on his partner. Thats not respect. Friends don't share videos of sexual acts and encourage each other. Friends don't go around to Geylang to look at those prostitutes. If thats what you call friends, I think its better not to have those kind of friends right? I am not saying its you. im saying his mates. good friends should respect one anothers gf bf and respect each others religion. and good friends don't talk dirty about their sex life openly. thats confidential don't you agree? See, thats why he started pulling away from you people. Cos he realised its making his soul unclean. Please dont take it to heart, i am not directing this to you. i am just trying to explain to you the reason for his departure from the class.

Thanks. "

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Read this:

"Get this fact into your brain.

My dearest friend, I have never gave up on you.

It was you who did so....! Our friendship...!

You changed your number, no one knew where you fucking are anymore....!
*Guess what? You want me to STALK you? 8D

Ask yourself this question, who were the ones who actually did this sexual talk?
Did the girls from Kitchenette and SGA do so? What about me?

If we did, I'm probably screwing one of the girls happily, or maybe you if I'm/was desperate. 8D

Ask yourself another question, who went to ask KAK which Hotel 81 to go to?
Please do not pretend I did not see you asking her for "ADVICE", what a hypocrite.

Remember to use a condom, my friend! \o/"

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To my dearest bibik~

Your comment is real appreciated...!!!!! >_< thank you!

"Ahh. Amelia, this guy was once the talent of the class. Surely he did impacted the class in one ways or another and I am so very sure why you'd miss him even after he "disappeared" for probably various reasons.

Gees, I didn't know the class has causes the guy's soul to bet dirty. Maybe 'cause the class sing and cheered too much. Or maybe because the classmates are just being normal teenagers whose curiosity outshines every other aspects. Oh boy, Amelia. Its sad that this had to happen. The once cheerful (oh well, sadly no one knows that hes sad inside) guy has changed for the better is some other funny way.

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Itsokay, The rest is still there for you, no matter what. "

gosh! thank you so much....!!!!!!!!!!!! >_<

Labels: 2009, friends, grown up, HK, HPO, i am prettier than you, ITE, letters to..., life, more than words, sarcasm with love, SEXYBACK, whatever, why hermoine

About LOVE, what type of a person do you think you are?

For quite sometime, I think I am kind of like Usami Akihiko of Junjou Romantica. When it comes LOVE, you are willing to give up almost anything just to have the person you LOVE by your side. Well, I think I am somewhere between there, though I don’t think I really have the guts to give up EVERYTHING, to make the other party fall in love with you. *I draw a thin line somewhere you see.* I am envious at the part that Usami is able to give out his LOVE without feeling ashamed or whatsoever. Why can’t I be a little bit like this…?

I have been in and out of love, though I have NEVER cheated on anyone in my past relationships. Apparently, God has been kind enough to show what bastards my previous boyfriends were, one was in his 30s, another was sexually-deprived, and the very last guy, a cheating b*stard. One way or another, God was showing me things I have not realised at all. How His LOVE is greater than man on Earth were/are giving me.

It was real sweet that the first guy I dated, treated me like a princess, like a child, like I belonged somewhere. But there was something about him that was never assuring, that he was (and you think i will reveal on this public entry?!)… Things were kind of strange when I began thinking about our future. I took a step and broke up with him weeks later, citing that I am over and done with. And I heard that he left my previous company, probably couldn’t handle a rejection ay?

The second guy? A little close like the first one, but sadly, a sexually-deprived dude. Whenever we are out together, there was a need for me to be in his arms, in within his distance. It was suffocating, though my smses was worse. He never liked the way I handled OUR relationship and neither did I enjoyed the way he handled me, as if I was his toy. He dumped me (if I am correct), and we are just friends ever since. The name of this guy? Make a guess or just ask me. :D

Ah-hah, the last guy. The guy who really took me like a pathetic fool. Sadly, I am much smarter than he is. We were in a relationship for a while, when he began ignoring my smses and calls. Slowly, I realised, I wasn’t the only girl in his life. Damn, stealing boyfriends ain’t my cup of tea, baby. *shrugs* I saw photos of him with a girl pecking his cheeks, when I confronted him, he said that was his OLDER SISTER kissing him in front of his brother-in-law! What a joke! Guys, do your OLDER SISTER ever do that to you in PUBLIC? Hmm, I, as an older sister, wouldn’t do that to my sibling/younger sister. So anyway I pretended I didn’t know anything, but secretly I was collecting information, and one day he TRULY blew it, and I BROKE UP WITH THAT S*CKER. :) (And I love the way it feels when I am SINGLE once again!)

After each relationship, I felt so bad. I felt like I was cheating on God. Imagine how many times have His words keep reflecting in my mind on why shouldn’t I date these bunch of monkeys a.k.a. s*ckers. I was stubborn, refusing to take in ANY single words of His, making me feel more IDIOTIC. Damnit, why didn’t I heed God’s words when I hear it every time, I asked myself this. I felt miserable as I was too afraid of sharing these stupid feelings that I had with friends, though I know some were truly concerned. That’s when I realised how much I am in God’s eyes, through His little actions that kept me sane all these while.

It’s all right now. (Because I have been through WORSE.)

I am fine with being single. Yes, it feels kind of, well, strange, as it is closing on to Valentine’s Day soon in less than a month, but I am happy I am single, for now. Why bother to get yourself hurt by man who only want you as merchandise, instead of a SPECIAL GIRL that you are? If a man LOVES you for who you are, will he pressure you anything, especially SEX? Come on lar, don’t joke with me. Giving up your virginity/chastity for a man like them before MARRIAGE, sucks ‘kay? It’s stupid even in the first place that you believe in HAPPILY EVER AFTER at the age of, what? 16? LOL! Happily ever after is getting married to the man of your life and staying together for better or for worse to get old and die together lar(that means you guys were together for at least half a century…?!). Aiyo, sometimes reading teenagers/people’s problems about SEX ar, want to laugh, also cannot laugh, want to cry also cannot cry. It’s silly to begin with!

But anyway girls, don’t get taken in easily by SOME boys no matter what happens, they are just some buaya-wannabe. :)

*to the boys: not to be a b*tch here, but this a girls-only entry. :)
**to that someone, I still like you after 2 years, but now it is just a wee bit. Give me sometime to get over this, okay…? :) Or maybe just a little more, cause I will see you soon. :) And I will prove to you I am better than you think with my achievements.
***and YES!!!! I ISH FINALLY A SINGLISH USER!!! Or somewhere along that line or two…
****to the adults: don’t kill me for this entry, just needed to share some stuff with teenagers who might be reading my entries.

God, I really thank You for being there for me all these while, though there were times I knew You were very disappointed, especially at the boys I dated before. But God, please give me more of Your wisdom, Your sight, so I do not get taken in easily again. You knew somehow, how much this crush means to me in a way, so teach me to get over this. I need this, cause sometimes it kills me to sms him, I am just being Your silly little girl now… >_<>

Labels: 2009, boys, girls, relationships, reliefed, sex, sharing, SHOCK, why hermoine

Labels: 2009, afterthoughts, FAKE, HIGH, hugs and lurves, joke, liar, pretty lights, under attack, updates, what about maturity, whatever, why hermoine

i finally finished my ten days roadshow at marine parade le. got a chance to rest le. i'm now having a bad SORE THROAT!!!!! >,< gaah....

hmmm. i'm not going for the event this sunday, cause i got photoshoot!!!! yeah! finally got my costume and wigs liao! hahaX. the only problem, is how to get my wig in shape wor... hahaX. cause namine the hair need to be layered by hairdressers de...

i think i finally know why curs said i am like hermoine le. Hermoine in the Harry potter series is a very sensible and mature girl, often given wisdom slightly wiser beyond her age to harry and ron. a very clever girl too. well, i'm sensible to a certain point bahX... hahaX.

i feel like starting a business ar... probably collaborate with my mum or smthg. since she can do beads earrings which are pretty nice.

gaah. lisa ono is a ver good singer!!!!! XD though its not the type of songs i'll sing, but probably enjoy whole heartedly... hahaX.

i feel like learning photography professionally. in photography we expressed emotions differently, cuase it's like a pair of human eyes, the perception of it, etc...

...you are my sunshine, my only sunshine
you make me happy when skies are grey...

gosh... lisa ono is really DAMN GOOD!!!!! XP

>> i just don't get this cosplayer ar... always tell me, she's busy with school, etc. but actually she's busy with her costumes. what a SELFISH little b*tch. i could have fought with her last friday, if i hadn't held my COOL. she's dAMN luCKY. f*ck euu lar. <<

>> I'M NOT BEING CRUDE, cause i can be worse than this, count your lucky stars! you better learn how to see from people's shoes, stop saying about living for others. we live for ourselves. i'm not asking you to be self-centred, i'm asking you to see that living on EARTH is a real blessing in disguise, some babies don't even live to see pass their first year of age. it hurts for me to see you like this. some people want to jump, run, laugh etc, but they cant, we can. why don't we just live each day with happiness...?

"Happiness is like a toothbrush
Everyone has one"

you are just hurting yourself even more.<<

hmm. i actually had a thought a few weeks ago. i wanna ADOPT kids! XD i want to give them more happiness, having a home, someone who loves them.... even if i were to have one of my own, i shall name him "SIRIUS"!!!! hahaX. X3 "sirius" actually means DOG STAR, do you know that? XD just lurve kids too much... XD

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