mood: moo. moo. moo.
listening: Bridge to the Other Side

there's a Class Outing going on next week, argh, i'll only be returning form KL on that day ar... how??? *sigh*

i should start on my new year resolutions soon, man... maybe one for every month, how bout thaT? then i must motivate myself to do them..!!! *gosh, aren't i lazy?*

was inspired by curs' entry on her blog recently...

i miss...

GOD
CHURCh *i swear i ain't no goody 2 shoes christian*
being free!!!
some of my beloved friends i've not met for a very long time...
cosplaying as someone i can really relate myself to...
*curs, you, too... miss ya' nagging/SCOLDINGS!!!! XD*

gosh. i should really stop and take a lok around me, before i lose everything...

Labels: afterthoughts, bleh, boo-yeah, cursendra, directions, don't cry, God's LurvE, grown up, hugs and lurves, hurts, ITE, leaving, lose everything, lurve ones, sweet lurve, unrequited love, whatever

mood: i don't know, everything's in a mess now...
listening: Right Where You Want Me by JESSE MCCARTNEY

gosh. why do i feel that everything in my mind is in a mess?! i can't seem to get anything right at all... feel like crap...

...Girl,
There's something 'bout me that you ought to know.
I've never felt the need to lose control.
Always held on back and played it slow.
But not this time.
Baby, don't be gentle,
I can handle anything...

let me set things straight before i throw myself of the cliff. Yes, i'm single and VERY AVAILABLE now. but right now, i'm not ready to be in a relationship. i don't want to be the vulnerable one in the relationship, i don't want to get so scared each time i'm w/ a guy, i want that guy to be CHOSEN by GOD.

...Baby,
Take me on a journey.
I've been thinking lately,
I could use a little time alone with you.
Crazy,
Let's do something, maybe.
Please don't take your time,
You got me,
Right where you want me...

i'm afraid of being CHEATED. i'm afraid of losing my MIND. i'm afraid of hurting my LOVE ONES.

yes, i'll be lonely being SINGLE, but do you think it's really a problem to me? no, it's not a problem to me, at all. though it's getting tempting now to be in a relationship, i will stay abide what i've promised to myself, and also to GOD.

i admit, i ain't no goody-goody CHRISTIAN, i stll have more to learn in LIFE!

...Can't explain it,
How you swept me off my feet, unexpectedly.
In slow motion,
My imagination's running, trying to keep my body still,
I can hardly stand the thrill...

so please, i'm not LOOKING for LOVE NOW!!!

...Baby,
Take me on a journey.
I've been thinking lately,
I could use a little time alone with you.
Crazy,
Let's do something, maybe.
Please don't take your time,
You got me,
Right where you want me...

Labels: afterthoughts, gaah, God's LurvE, grown up, lost, love, lurve ones, not looking, sweet lurve, tears, what about maturity

listening: she wore a yellow ribbon by lisa ono
mood: pretty chirpy, i guess...?

...around her neck she wore a yellow ribbon
shw wore it in the winter
and the merry month of may
and when i asked her why the yellow ribbon
she wore it for her sweetie who was far far away...

lalala... what a nice song... it's about this women wearing a yellow ribbon for her love one/husband/lover, who's actually in prison... sweet.... XD i guess everyone have heard about the Yellow Ribbon Project, right...? it's a project about helping ex-convicts to get back with the world, though they had committed crimes...! hahaX. i went to their concerts a few years back, damn NICE! hahaX.

gaah... i wanna adopt a kid... >,< really... a child dat will belong to suki, and suki alone. XD yahoo! sheesh, i wonder what wil the others think of this... hahaX.

*rolls around* i'm going to be 17 soon!!!! in just 2 weeks or so...! yeah~ do hope can have a makan session with minna-san~ miss you guys so much! hahaX. will spread my kisses later~ whee~~~~

i just had my photoshoot yesterday with rayblade wor! we went to sentosa for my namine de photoshoot. everyone was staring at me, cause of my DAMN nice blonde wiggy. hahaX. XD hahaX. but did enjoy my photoshoot...!!! thanks, rayblade~~

oh my~~~~~ i'm totally addicted to harry + severus pairing~~~ oh my~~~ sweet lurve~~~

sheesh... many things have changed, haven't they....? i've changed too... though not a PERFECT person yet. hahaX. been through love and pain. gained friends and foes. well, life can't always be that smooth-sailing, can it be...? if it's so smooth-sailing, i'll still be a spoiled lil' brat...!!!! hahaX.

you know what... sakai michiba is real sweet. he/she actually left a message at my LJ, telling me that ambivalent lucidity is at its last chapter. so sweet...

i want my POTTER boy!!!!!!! gimme~ gimme~ gimme~ gimme~ gimme~ gimme~ ...if not i'll set my HAMSTERS on you...

i want to learn spanish~~~ anybody willing to sponsor suki.luna...? XD

Labels: adopt, ambivalent lucidity, birthday, children, harry + sevvy, harry potter, namine, photoshoot, sakai michiba, sweet lurve, yellow ribbon