Mood:

我知道,我不该POST在这里.



可是, 我已经忍无可忍了.



我也不知道我现在的DEPARTMENT的地位是什么呢???



*杂工的吧?

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i am going to erase you slowly out of my life, that you do not know what had striked you, b*tch.

I told you once, i will tell you one last time.

our 6/7 years of friendship is down the drains. i did what i could to be a friend to you, but you blew it on your own.

don't blame me if you find yourself alone on the streets.
don't blame me if you find what i said all comes true.
don't blame me if you find that i am wrong.

blame yourself for whatever that happened to you.

simple as that.

Labels: 6 years friendship down the drain, afterthoughts, anger, breakup, directions, erase, life, lose everything, lost, love, lurve ones, lurves, MAJOR, SHORT-CIRCUIT, thanks, what about maturity, whatever

Listening: Katrina – David Tao
Mood: F*CKING P*SSED, HAPPY NOW?!

To be honest, I’m actually very, very p*ssed. And I am rarely seen doing the most absurd things, other than throwing a goddamn tantrum. Really, tantrums aren’t the worst of me.

When I get angry, I’ve actually got to hold my temper to the point, when actually there are times I’ve really wanted to hit someone. (Yes, I’ve got very bad temper…!) But each time, people have to just step over my head, going on “ATTACKING” me. Hey, I ain’t no sick cat.

I know I’ll do stupid things when I get real sh*tty p*ssed, that’s one of my reason of not hitting people. I even try to back down from a fight/quarrel at times when I know it’ll go to nowhere good for both of the parties, though I don’t really mind being “PHYSICAL”!

I know, this blog entry will not make any sense to anyone; it’s just that I’m real ANGRY!!! *Growl*

>>I feel so used! Each time I make the effort to something, you don’t seem to appreciate it! No point telling me that you want me. I feel like an sms-buddy of yours, I was never part of your life, I see…

I’m not good with words or with actions. I’m b*tchy. Irritating. Dumb. Insensitive. I’m not so feminine unlike the girls I know/mix with. They’re so soft, nice, sweet, understanding. I’m so MUCH like a guy at times, that sometimes I wonder whether am I a girl or a guy…<<

Maybe I’ll play…

Sh*t I never was patient. I never was the PERFECT dream girl. I never was what you wanted. I never trust people, EASILY, you know why?! Because I’m always being put down by people I care for, why do I actually have to bother to trust them in the first place? How many times have I trusted someone when each time I turn my back, he/she does something bad to me?! Have you bothered to understand me in the first place?! Have you ever bothered to keep your promise you made to me?!

If you have never ever thought of keeping your promises to me, I suggest we better stop being friends, I DO NOT like such people pretending to be part of my life. I have enough on my plate I don’t need yours. Don’t pretend you ever know me, cause I’m not what you see.

I’m not a f-ing s*ssy princess of yours, I’m the QUEEN.
I’ll play with you, like a cat playing with its dinner.
I’ll spin you round and round, till you get confused from what’s happening.
I’ll be that puppeteer, controlling your every move, if that’s what you want.
I’ll never be yours that is for sure…

Labels: afterthoughts, anger, FUCK YOU, p*ssed, pfft