listening: Danny Boy - Lisa Ono
mood: ...

my grandfather has just passed away this morning. my mum woke me up, and just suddenly announced to me and my sister, that he passed on.

to me, i'm not sad 'cause God has taken him to heaven, a place where he'll not suffer any longer... i sound bad, cause it's true. when you're on your deathbed, do you want people to mourn over you, to be sad everyday. it hurts. we gotta smile and move on, not stumble and wait for someone to offer a hand.

...and if you come, when all the flowers are dying
and i am dead as dead i well may be
you'll come and find the place where i am lying
and kneel and say an "Ave" there for me...

hush, hush. tears fall as they should, i'll not stop. but promise me, that you'll want me by your side, for i shall be the one who'll sweep your tears away, promise me this okay...? i will not hurt you like what the others did, shh... (damn, why does it sound like a guy professing his undying lurve...?!)

hush, hush. the tears shall end for now. hush, hush.